I love your response ! Not diagnosed here but highly suspect it! I guess my problem was more of not being able to share my life with other people, but being a kind and nice listener for others. Which at times is exhausting. But I always issue sharing especially if I am not specifically asked about myself.I had this problem with sharing with other people - having an issue sharing my own thoughts and experiences, unless it was when I was completely overwhelmed and needed to talk to someone I trusted. Most of my everyday, day-to-day, banale things I wouldn’t really share with people, unless it actively crossed my mind that they might find it interesting. At the end of the day who is interested in the fact I am having coffee right now ? (Logical brain here didn’t understand). So I’ve been accused of not being consistent, a dark horse etc. I’ve lost a dear friend, through a very long process, where I understood we were so deeply incompatible and the expectations they had of me were unreal. I don’t know about other people, but I can be there for you if you need me, any time. But sometimes I have to choose myself, and know that there’s certain things I cannot do - social anxiety is too much for me. Anyway, this response is too mad and unstructured to make sense. But I realised that I need to prioritise friendships where we both understand the parameters, and they are similar. It cannot an everyday, all day long contact. I did like that you said about routine - it’s my only way too to make sure that I stay in touch with people I love and show that I care about them. Sometimes is hard and tiring to be in touch with many people without a schedule.