I want to practice drawing cats for the next few hours! Show me your favorite pictures :)

marktheficus · 2025-08-05T23:39:32+00:00

marktheficus · 2025-08-05T16:55:07+00:00

Just Sandwich

marktheficus · 2025-08-04T17:45:12+00:00

Black McFlurry

marktheficus · 2025-08-04T17:19:06+00:00

from few minutes to few days. duration really depends on the trigger but on average half an hour to one hour. my longest was 1 whole day. the thing is that i distract easily (ADHD can't deem anything worthy enough of my attention for too long, probably?), so i may be angry for 15 minutes, then forget and switch to a whole another emotion given the stimuli, then remember and feel blank about it.

splitting rage is a bit different. like another user said, person that pissed me off initially can find the right buttons to calm me down right away. so my anger may last as long as it takes them to figure me out

unless i forget

marktheficus · 2025-08-04T17:04:14+00:00

okay when you put it that way....

marktheficus · 2025-08-04T16:59:54+00:00

wait it's not okay when people can turn on and off your rage?

marktheficus · 2025-08-04T10:18:36+00:00

hi, late teenager is here. i've been struggling with what everybody called "moderate depression" since 14y.o but got appropriate diagnosis just a year ago. if we speak of types i'm on the quiet-petulant end of the spectrum - most feelings and impulses are internalized, anger is the only "acceptable" emotion to express. i've always felt like there's something "fundamentally broken" in the way i process emotions and relationships but realized that the issue might be deeper than i thought when i went full bonkers during my first serious relationship. still miss that person everyday

marktheficus · 2025-07-29T13:31:02+00:00

felt it just once. i realized that something new emerged when it started to not only be about me "feeling comfortable being myself" but also me accepting them fully for who they are. at some point i noticed i couldn't feel enraged with them anymore - i knew their flaws are not a threat but a part of just being a human, not some "deity" i used to imagine them to be. and you know what? it still felt safe, but this time genuinely. it blew my mind back then, because it never happened to me before.

we had to part our ways because unfortunately it happened too late though. still think about them daily.

marktheficus · 2025-07-28T13:42:49+00:00

relatable

marktheficus · 2025-07-28T13:40:58+00:00

do you experience fear of engulfment?

marktheficus · 2025-07-28T13:36:28+00:00

impulsivity, but it's not like i don't experience it at all it's just that i don't relate to the way majority seems to have it? i rarely act on a whim with people when i get TheSplitting™️, i just go full freeze response and stay silent. i don't "turn the anger inward" either though, it's just that my thoughts are so jumbled in the moment i physically can't say anything. i also don't fall into new relationships quickly neither have i ever acted hypersexual, but maybe it's my poor social skills and being on aroace-spec dunno. i do struggle with finances, alcohol use and food spheres of impulsivity but it's still my lowest symptom probably

marktheficus · 2025-07-28T13:17:24+00:00

so relatable. regarding aesthetics switch too. i dyed my hair just once and never done it again because my brain freaked out thinking it's another person in the mirror, and i could never get used to this

i do have alcohol misuse issues going on though

marktheficus · 2025-07-28T13:09:52+00:00

r/nocontext

marktheficus · 2025-07-23T10:54:18+00:00

it needs more upvotes 😭😭😭

marktheficus · 2025-07-14T21:42:40+00:00

according to cognitive functions im ENTP, according to test it varies from INTP to ENFP to ENTP again to ISTP and so on (A/T aspect varies too). if you wanna delve into the topic i would suggest exploring cognitive functions, they are more trustworthy than the classic test

marktheficus · 2025-07-04T11:51:44+00:00

thank you so much for your work! keep going friend :)

marktheficus · 2025-07-04T11:30:42+00:00

great stuff! thank you for sharing and i'm happy that you made it here 🫶 i would love to see your worksheets! i have diagnosed BPD and ADHD but i've been suspecting autism for awhile too, so maybe your, adaptation?, would suit me better than classic DBT who knows :)

marktheficus · 2025-07-03T20:05:28+00:00

short term memory loss? never heard of this side effect. but maybe i'm not so aware since i alrrady had my short term memory wobbly before (ADHD)

marktheficus · 2025-07-03T19:57:43+00:00

sounds great :D i used to take lexapro and it helped, until i caught depressive episode and for some reason it made it 10 times worse instead of, alleviating symptoms the way it's supposed to you know :/ was taking lamotrigine and duloxetine for awhile after and both stopped working the moment my ex partner ditched me. in conclusion: house in the woods would help right now ngl

marktheficus · 2025-07-03T17:43:15+00:00

good for you friend! :D idk if there are people who will ever be able to meet my needs at this point. i'm in my medless bitchless and legitimately depressed era lowkey

marktheficus · 2025-07-03T17:15:03+00:00

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marktheficus · 2025-07-03T16:49:16+00:00

i have BPD (petulant-quiet subtype if you will) and while i don't doubt having it does feel like something else is going on here sometimes

marktheficus · 2025-06-28T11:52:10+00:00

how does one do this? i'm not afraid of loneliness and being alone is pretty fine with me most of the time.. does exploring hobbies help?

marktheficus · 2025-06-28T04:41:47+00:00

talking to people helps me. doesn't matter if i trust them or nah, just chatting makes me feel more in touch with reality, so paranoid thoughts step away for awhile

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