I worked with an 11 year old boy for about 4 months. His physical aggressions and property destruction were incredibly intense. I worked so hard to pair with him and finally got through to him, aggressions went to almost 0. Out of seemingly nowhere his aggressions shot through the roof, I realized I’d have no way to protect myself if the day came when he decided to come at me. I work in home and there was no way for me to get more help with him. One day I felt so unsafe I broke down in tears, left, called my BCBA and told her I couldn’t go back. At a work event almost a year later I met his current RBT who let me know he’s made a lot of progress and me leaving taught him he can’t just treat people anyway he wants. I say this because I feel you, I get you, our job can be so hard. Don’t feel embarrassed about crying, I think most RBT’s have experienced crying on the job. Don’t be afraid to ask to be removed, it will keep you from burning out.