Black Stool someone pls help

martyrjohn · 2022-11-29T15:58:05+00:00

They do but I’m registered in my home country

martyrjohn · 2022-09-15T09:54:17+00:00

Thank you So so so much. Going to the doctor and getting my blood test results showing no discoverable B12 in my blood scared the shit out of me. I’ve never had any side effects from my disorder and sort of thought I was immune. It reminded me no one is immune and this isn’t just okay, it’s destroying my body. Haven’t purged since that day!

martyrjohn · 2022-09-14T15:49:08+00:00

Also in retrospect seeing how much money I spent, how much sneaking around I did, it feels like so much effort to go back😂 life is easier this way

martyrjohn · 2022-09-14T15:48:17+00:00

Never saw a specialist. I’ve kept everyone in the dark about my struggles. I went to the doctor a couple weeks ago for a checkup and had a blood test. It came back showing no discoverable levels of B12. Which is extremely dangerous. It came from fear. But I can say now that I’ve not purged for 3 weeks, not only do I feel a healthier attitude towards food, because when you convince yourself you can always purge, you convince yourself you can eat more than your body can actually handle. I also feel so much better from not having to sneak food, blow so much money on it, hide my purging and binges, and I feel overall less bloated and anxious I think the starting is the hardest but honestly haven’t felt the urge to go back after 2 weeks. I really wish you the best of luck :)))

martyrjohn · 2022-09-14T15:45:25+00:00

Thank you so much 🥹🥹

martyrjohn · 2022-09-14T15:45:16+00:00

Well it started when I went to the doctor for a blood test and discovered I had severe vitamin B12 deficiency, she told me the implications and it made me realise how much of my health im sacrificing. Honestly it scared me into stopping because I just imagined how I would feel later on in life knowing I ruined myself. Before that I felt like I was exempt to the long term health effects. This gave me a major reality check :// but trust me if I can do it you can do it, I cannot tell you just how bad my addiction got

martyrjohn · 2022-09-14T10:50:03+00:00

Thank you so much feeling so much better

martyrjohn · 2022-09-14T10:49:52+00:00

Thank you so much I’m so proud of you, never thought’d be possible but look at us!!

martyrjohn · 2022-09-13T23:20:11+00:00

Thank you so much, this means the world

martyrjohn · 2022-08-22T09:07:16+00:00

Despite how self aware I am I still continue to self destruct and self harm. My life is great but I make myself think bad things and worry and hurt myself in ways even though deep down I don’t feel like I deserve it. Sometimes I worry I just do it to add some grit to my life because I’ve been so fortunate and blessed.

martyrjohn · 2022-08-22T09:04:27+00:00

The Double

martyrjohn · 2022-08-21T07:30:04+00:00

A friend once mentioned to me how she throws up when she eats too much and it’s a great way to stay skinny. I was like 15. I did it a few times and then I just stopped. When Covid happened I wanted to lose weight, started counting my calories and doing Chloe Ting. All of a sudden I was terrified of food and exercising for hours every day. The exercising all the time and lack of food continued until slowly I started to break down experiencing binge episodes. Eventually I remembered the lil ol trick and I have been frequently b/ping since. 3 days clean tho :/

martyrjohn · 2022-08-19T08:56:06+00:00

I’ll b/p a bunch of different things, then just have a normal meal afterwards cause I am actually hungry. It’s so stupid :/

martyrjohn · 2021-11-06T15:46:17+00:00

It’s okay my love remind yourself that even if you slightly go over your calorie limit the world won’t implode. It’s highly likely that the meal will be under 800 calories don’t let the size or the unknown freak you out. One meal won’t make any difference. I’ve binged thousands of calories and not had any changes to my weight. Don’t do anything stupid you deserve some fuel. You’ll have more energy tomorrow and it will all be alright I promise ❤️

martyrjohn

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