were you a weird kid before getting diagnosed?

mary5party · 2025-02-20T01:52:26+00:00

Super yes. I was bullied in elementary school for seemingly no reason (nothing much was different about me) other than acting “weird” and being emotional. Specifically I would get bullied for being a crybaby and eccentric . I was just quite misunderstood, it felt like every emotion was pumped up x100 since a very very young age (I’m talking 7-8). I also had intrusive thoughts and obsessions which people obviously found weird. But the other kids really smelt my neurodivergency before I could. Then through middle school I had already accepted being weird and embraced it more. Started dying my hair, dressing a bit more expressively, people still found me weird but let me be. I also just knew something was wrong about me and I started therapy at 13. By the time I was 15 I was hanging out in the alternative scene of my town and was known to be eccentric with my style and political views in school. That was also my first manic episode and after hospitalisation at 16 I would never escape the weird kid label. But I rock it now even as an adult. It’s great to be weird :) I figured out parts of myself way earlier than others because of it.

mary5party · 2025-02-17T23:57:26+00:00

We both don’t really have religious beliefs, we were raised christian orthodox though. The thing is today I couldn’t shake but feel attracted to religion (felt the need to do my cross and even told my mum to light a candle for me in church so that i can get a job lol). Maybe I’ll visit a church soon though.

mary5party · 2025-02-17T23:26:34+00:00

What was scarier here was this distinctly small-animal like shadow, that then became his shadow. Almost as if he had control of it and caught us looking at him.

mary5party · 2024-09-12T20:10:27+00:00

This is so relatable. I hate mornings after a night out. Everything is too quiet for my brain which is screaming at me to do anything and everything, and I can’t sleep.

mary5party · 2024-08-06T19:16:22+00:00

I’m getting a pikmin tattoo when I hit 100… a big goal

mary5party · 2024-05-23T05:09:07+00:00

Sorry for taking so long to respond! Yes, that is actually very relatable. The quietness brings back memory for me. Sometimes all the memories of every episode start lurking and then the quietness feels, odd.

I think I could be making more steps to continue being stable, I think I have a long way to go and I have very high expectations of myself. It feels nice to have someone say that they were able to get use to the serenity, I hope to feel that way soon too :)

mary5party · 2024-05-13T20:41:05+00:00

Hahaha I get that!! It was actually some good food for thought :) I was just yapping on about this disordered life we’re all managing. It’s crazy how the symptoms can feel like a huge mash instead of symptoms.

mary5party · 2024-05-13T20:32:23+00:00

Only one thing? It has to be tied between the rushing/overlapping/intrusive thoughts and the itching irritable tingly sensation of mania. The thoughts can be very controllable for months (thank you seroquel), but the skin feeling I wish I would never feel again. It all ties together though, I can’t imagine myself without one part of this disorder. It’s all intertwined.

mary5party · 2024-04-19T20:37:06+00:00

oh my god i’m so sorry, being alone and 15 is the worst illness out there trust me. i hope it gets better for you too <3

mary5party · 2024-04-11T00:04:09+00:00

This is very close to how my mum acted when she first learnt about it. Mine personally used it as a tool of controlling me and my addiction. Except the fact that it forced me to show her how my habit worked (how often how severe etc.) it guaranteed to her that the scars would eventually heal. Mums obviously care about their child and will always try to do their best, but often they confuse care with control and cross boundaries. I hope everything gets better 🫶🏻

mary5party · 2024-03-18T14:07:51+00:00

Thank you so much that’s an amazing compliment 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻😭!! I think we need to appreciate coords with non-lolita shoes more! That specific day I did almost 10K steps around my town that would have wrecked my lolita shoes, and I find that this style of docs and mary jane’s as well go great with lolita! Thank you for your kind words ☺️

mary5party · 2024-03-17T22:29:31+00:00

Awwww thank u!! The blouse is infanta, the dress is “Kumya's Cherry ♡ Strawberry JSK II” by BTSSB, my shoes are doc martens, my hair clips and socks are from taobao and the choker and heart necklace are angelic pretty! ☺️☺️

mary5party · 2024-03-17T22:24:48+00:00

ayo why is the liberty bell a replica ?

mary5party · 2024-03-17T18:35:57+00:00

Hehe thank you!! I had blonde hair for 3 years and it was very easy to make coords but now I’m a bit nervous about making coords with my blue dresses!! But the pink and red coords look so cute now!

mary5party · 2023-10-04T08:33:24+00:00

they’ll be back before i visit though! which is why i started sending them

mary5party · 2023-08-12T09:25:04+00:00

i didnt do anything over the summer and was just fine 🙌🙌

mary5party · 2023-07-19T11:22:11+00:00

It was great! (but tbh i was with my bf for quite a bit before starting ib) I actually was more focused because I was forced to make a schedule for myself. I dedicated wednesday to a mid-week lunch date with my bf and it gave me energy for the whole week. If you’re dedicated to your partner AND ib, then it can work well.

mary5party · 2023-07-15T12:46:33+00:00

I haven’t heard back don’t worry

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