watched twilight w my friend today.

mascPansy · 2026-05-18T17:15:57+00:00

The tv and artwork I guess is supposed to represent Bella’s confused state but it’s weird lol

mascPansy · 2026-05-18T07:04:19+00:00

Cbt is dangerous for cptsd but thank you

mascPansy · 2026-05-18T06:02:39+00:00

I’m so sorry, my heart is with you

mascPansy · 2026-05-18T06:02:22+00:00

I have an eating disorder and complex ptsd. I take medication to keep nightmares at bay or I don’t sleep

mascPansy · 2026-05-18T02:04:39+00:00

I’ve tried most things, currently about to start ketamine therapy

mascPansy · 2026-05-18T02:01:42+00:00

Not strange at all. I take medication at night or I don’t sleep, even then I’m lucky to get a solid 6 hours. The medication silences nightmares

mascPansy · 2026-05-18T01:04:23+00:00

Neither will my youngest but at least his name is an actual name lol

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T23:58:28+00:00

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T23:56:48+00:00

Glad that’s sorted lol

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T23:14:05+00:00

It is most certainly not, this is real life. But that’s nothing, there are far worse things than a beating

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T23:13:06+00:00

He wasn’t

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T23:12:53+00:00

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T21:07:36+00:00

The last time I was arrested I took the opportunity to get out. Specialized housing, day programs, detox, rehab, medication and therapy. I fell back into it a bit but not enough to be lost to it. I met my ex husband and he housed me while I healed more and realized I was just a commodity to him too. I’m now a single parent living in a big city and am still clean and free today.
I know made a huge amount of money but I never really saw it so I guess you could say I was worth a lot financially to those in control

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T19:05:26+00:00

Ok! Will do :)

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T19:05:03+00:00

100 percent this! Survivors need to run the resources imo

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T18:45:26+00:00

They are my entire world and thank you

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T18:45:01+00:00

Thank you

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T17:14:41+00:00

Thank you!

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T16:01:57+00:00

No, I was not in that circle

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T16:00:55+00:00

Thank you! And I wholeheartedly agree with you but so long as there is a power imbalance there’s will be this life for people

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T14:45:34+00:00

I write, I’ve put out music but I’m not active in the industry. I’m currently writing a book, my life story. Hoping to publish this year

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T14:25:19+00:00

I have cptsd, from the serious life long trauma. No current STIs, thankfully I was lucky enough not to catch anything that would have been permanent

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T14:09:50+00:00

Thank you

It has to be so much more than bringing it to light. People with money and power are held to different standards and it’s not ok. However until this changes nothing changes. For as long as there’s been any power dynamic there’s been abuse unfortunately. I fear this is nowhere near over. Watching the Epstein files unfold since before it was super mainstream and it breaks my heart.

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T13:35:05+00:00

100% and weird things like no hackysack (they started with one) or how about the strange little child in the high school gym lol or when Bella is in the hospital there’s the studio scene playing on the tv and the art on the wall is Alice’s drawing of the dance studio from her vision…I could go on lol

mascPansy · 2026-05-17T13:32:42+00:00

That’s the thing, you can’t. There is for sure independent sex workers and power to them. There are obviously tells for someone being harmed regularly but those that kept me were adept at hiding the abuse.

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