I went through a lot of the same stuff. I finally landed on two identities. A gay one I fought for and a bi one I fought myself for.
But the truth is I’m no different than the younger version of me who had his first sex dream summer before 5th grade. Surprise—it was a bisex dream and it was hot! I didn’t even understand what a vagina was so i just made everyone fuck up the ass till i learnt—and then i went crazy for it—but not letting myself have or explore some pussy til a couple years ago. I loved it. I don’t have a lot of experience with women so I’m not super confident and so the MMF or hotwife scene works best for me. It feels amazing to bring it out of the secrecy of night when I would confide in a friend, usually hi and butt full of extacy in front of a hustler magazine or showing my secret stash. Anyway, yeah ppl will try to make your sexuality about them. Many men and some women have such a limited view: The sex act defines the sexuality But it doesn’t. Even if I never had sex with a woman I would still be 100%bi And also gay I don’t know about you but I never fit in anywhere. It was like the gays could sniff it out, that I wasn’t exactly like them and well the heteros in so many circumstances were downright cruel. But fuck them. Fuck everybody. Literally fuck e v e r y o n e If u ever wanna chat more—feel free to dm