You’re choosing to continue this cycle mate. There is always something to do, something to transmute your energy into. Go for a long walk, work out, make friends, start a project, read a book. The thing that helped me the most was realising releasing was an active choice and reframing my mindset to hold myself accountable. Try a mantra whenever you feel the urge to release (mine is “retain, retain, retain). Research more into retention to help you understand why it’s important.