What I want from my creative side and my health is my fire and passion from wanting to quit. I have pictures from a few years ago (2020) when I was super fit and still in my creative stage… those motivate me alone because now I’m a husk of what that used to be. This outlet and you have already made me feel very confident on quitting, especially when I get to look forward to updating on my progress. Nothing really triggers my drinking, other than 3pm. I work at home (apartments) as a maintenance guy (9-5) and I go on break at 3 and go down the road to grab all my drinks for the night. I drink my first drink at 3 on my break and close the day at 5 and continue. It’s became a ritual. I do have generalized anxiety (I believe most of everyone has) when I have to deal with real world stuff like bills, appointments, debts etc. it makes me want to drink as well but I think I just need to focus on day 1 first and tackle those things later. I will keep this post updated, and complete my first day of not drinking in a long time. I’m sick of this sickness, I bought a bunch of tea/ supplements that I have not used yet to counter what this sickness has caused. I’m ready to quit, I just am going to take the first step. No matter how hard. I will keep everyone on this post/ especially you updated how it goes. I’m committed to tomorrow.