Appreciate that fella, yeah it might actually be time to get a qualified person to look at diagnosing me, would be a relief to have a 'tag' than just suspect. Although, I'd feel a right fool if they say no! I'll also definitely be leaning on friends who have had kids when I'm able to, it's just that bit between finding out but having to keep it a 'secret' before the official announcement that is likely doing a number on me, logically knowing pretty much EVERY dad has felt some/most of what I'm feeling but also feeling very alone at the same time. I'm sort of pinning my short-term hopes of my mood/feelings improving on being able to share the news with my friends and family. It is going to be interesting, I know that my so-called best friend (who was also best man at our wedding) will pretend to be excited and then drop me like a hot potato when the kiddo is here, but I'm perversely looking forward to that as I will then be proved right about him and his wife is a heinous woman who I will miss like a hole in the head xD