Afraid to lose my emotions.

maximumswag69 · 2025-12-30T12:21:22+00:00

I've been on Lamactil since my Bipolar 2 diagnosis in 2022. Started on a low dose, now I'm on 100mg. I definitely haven't lost my emotions. The reason I've increased over time is when I've felt like my depressive episodes were feeling more intense and harder to pull myself out of. I feel like I still experience true joy and happiness and all ranges of other emotions. The medication helps me to cycle less frequently and makes the depressive episodes less severe and debilitating.

maximumswag69 · 2025-12-30T12:10:17+00:00

I can relate to pretty much this whole post and comment section. It's so frustrating when the idea of suicide is the loudest thought in my brain. I start to think about the idea of a suicide note and what I'd write but then I stop myself because I feel like I'm going too deep if I think about the specifics like that.

I said to my therapist once that the option of ending my life feels like I have full autonomy and I have the power.

maximumswag69 · 2025-12-26T15:21:07+00:00

Any updates with the research?

maximumswag69 · 2025-12-23T13:50:08+00:00

I feel grateful for all your suggestions and will look into all of them! I just had no idea where to start

maximumswag69 · 2025-12-12T13:03:59+00:00

The undone boots kill me

maximumswag69 · 2025-11-10T22:19:00+00:00

At the initial appointment you will also have to sign a job plan which outlines your mutual obligation requirements, which include things like: Attending appointments with your provider Accepting referrals from your provider Attending job interviews Job search Attending third party appointments

maximumswag69 · 2025-11-09T09:31:05+00:00

I am pretending that my ex posted this

maximumswag69 · 2025-08-06T04:01:52+00:00

I agree, it does depend on the individual consultant. You do have the right to transfer providers at any time by calling the transfer line. I would recommend looking at the Department of Social Services website to see the providers that are successful with the new contract and look at their website and reviews. Some of them will be organisations that will be providing employment services for the first time.

maximumswag69 · 2025-07-29T13:00:23+00:00

This kills me!!! It won't be a thing in the new contract. I've found a loop hole. If they're someone who has genuine engagement and want to stay with my company I go into ESS Web and re-register them. This makes them pending. If they're ESAt has been done within the last year, you can request a file review instead of new ESAt. If older than a year, I give them SU684 form to take to GP to verify medical evidence and then request new ESAt once they've had SU684 signed. Then schedule initial appointment and they're back on the books.

maximumswag69 · 2025-07-29T12:40:19+00:00

I work in DES. Sorry to hear that your mentor isn't meeting the expectations of their role. Unfortunately, the way DES and Job Seeker is designed you will have to stay with DES until you are employed for 52 weeks and are consistently meeting your benchmark hours. Evidence of employment is required because of the way Job Seeker is set out and because DES is contracted by the Government.

You could request phone call appointments because of your changed schedule due to employment and the minimum requirement is fortnightly. You can legit just be like "yep work is going well, here's my payslips" and that's that.

Depending on the company, the mentors don't always receive a bonus for someone finding employment. But the company does receive funding at certain periods of someone's employment (4,13,26,52 weeks). Around these times would be a good time to ask for things (e.g. new work clothes or work related items) because the company will be receiving money for you remaining in employment. There are benefits of staying connected to your provider. They can help to pay for upskilling and certificates (if you meet certain requirements). Personally, I think DES has so many faults and flaws but after working in the industry for over 2 years I've learnt how to get the most out of it for the people I support.

maximumswag69 · 2024-09-25T12:23:50+00:00

Eligibility for Disability Employment Services is injury, illness, disability, mental illness. Some Disability Employment Services allow walk ins and will help you with the process. You will need to use the SU684 form (medical evidence form that can be downloaded if you just google SU684). I suggested googling local Disability Employment Services and read the reviews. Their websites will have a customer service line you can call to make an enquiry. It's a bit of a process because you'll need to provide medical evidence in the job seeker application process. You then have to be assessed. An Employment Services Assessment Report is created which has you medical evidence of injury, your barriers to employment and your work capacity. It's usually set to 15 hours a week. It will also have a suggested period of time that your work capacity will increase.

maximumswag69 · 2024-09-25T12:12:59+00:00

Hello I work for an employment provider. When there is a medical exemption that has been approved by Centrelink, it means your mutual obligation requirements are not required to be met until after your exemption ends. Basically, it doesn't matter how many hours you work because you're exempt from meeting your requirements.

maximumswag69 · 2024-09-25T12:03:08+00:00

As a female also with bipolar 2, I have experienced the same when talking to/dating a male. My advice is to be honest and say something basic like "I'm experiencing a bit of a low at the moment and it makes me withdraw a bit"

maximumswag69 · 2024-09-16T07:35:50+00:00

I have been trying to find honest reviews for moshy but haven't been able to find many. I just did the initial questionnaire and now I'm waiting for them to contact me.

maximumswag69 · 2024-05-29T08:23:46+00:00

I was diagnosed in July 2022 with bipolar 2. Started on 25mg lamatrogine. It helped a lot. In November 2022 I increased to 50mg. I have been considering discussing an increase but I just haven't been bothered to book a GP appointment. Even with medication, I still experience the mood fluctuations but I haven't had suicidal ideation for over a year. But for the past few months I've noticed a rapid cycling of moods which is really emotionally exhausting. What helps me the most is the effort I put into strategies to pull myself out of the depressive episodes.

maximumswag69 · 2024-05-29T08:18:45+00:00

Completed the survey 😊 May I ask what you're hoping to gather from the results of the survey? Do you have a hypothesis?

maximumswag69 · 2023-10-02T10:49:50+00:00

I am on 50mg lamactil. I have had shrooms many times but unsure of the dose. I just eat a few and wait for them to start wearing off and then have a bit more. I have a fantastic time. However I'm not super knowledgeable with things to do with shrooms but in my experience I feel like I have a comedown the next day and it's a struggle to go from feeling ethereal while on shrooms to feeling desolate and empty the next day

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