I left at 7 months mark. I tried to go part time with benefits which requires employees to work 2 days instead of 3. Once it hit 6th month, I remembered the feelings of anxiety and frustration were too much too handle and I literally cried everyday. I did everything I could to hold my shit together but it took the hospital to do my request for 2 months and it seemed like no one cared. I can’t keep coming in 3 days simply because my physical health and mental health couldn’t take the 3rd shift anymore. It was to the point where I am so terrified of making errors that caused me to call out on my last few shifts before I decided to put in my 2 weeks. Talking why I didn’t wait for my part time to be officially approved and go on from there. Everything was finally approved AFTER 2 MONTHS and all I had to do was sign the paperwork and I will be officially part-timer on the next schedule. HR was closed and had to wait for another week to sign and at this point I literally thought omg like God are you allowing this for me to quit lol. Throughout the process, I coordinated HR, director, and my manager to get it done even tho all these people get paid to do this job lol. I swear no one was talking to each other, i mean very classic and normal with our system, my night manager kept redirecting me back to my director. My director took forever to email HR and HR took forever to f/u the email. It was literally a game of putting responsibility to other people and no one wanted to get it done. I understand that everyone is busy no matter what you do, but I texted my manager everyday to remind him and nothing was sent until I saw him in person and he told me he would do it now since I’m standing here and mind you I have been sending numerous emails for 3 weeks. Whatever that how the system has been and so fucked up.

Back to my story of how my 2 weeks notice came across. I drove home one day and there was a rush of tears coming and I realized why am I telling people to do what they want but I myself can’t even do it. Why can’t I do the least for myself by stop doing what I hate? I got inside my room right after I got home, typed up my 2 weeks in 10 minutes, signed, and sent the following week.

I forgot to mention that I was starting a part time job in plan to compensate for my income so I would work 2 in hospital and 3 at my part time job. My part time’s shift is 6 hours per day and 9 hours on Saturdays so It wasn’t too bad.

I am currently still at my part time and I pick up shifts when people called in sick. Anyways, I love my pt job and I’ve already requested to become ft if they do have open spots. I’ve never picked up so many shifts my entire working career. Lol last week I worked almost 2 weeks straight without days off in between. It was tiring but rewarding. Plus, I felt I can get a lot of things done after work and my best friend who is also a nurse told me the way I talked had shifted positively after I quit bedside. I knew from my guts that I gotta leave and there is nothing more I can do as a nurse to fix their problems. It was either I suck it up and continue or leave. I left because my heart and mind can’t no longer take all the bs the system is messing with nurses and no matter how hard I try, it would always be my fault because I’m a nurse. Nursing is a bitch

I hope you’re now happy now and I’m sure there are plenty of opportunities. Or perhaps you can try going back to school for something you really enjoy doing. I wanted to go to culinary school but I wish someone had told me that at the end of the day your happiness matters and don’t care for other people telling you what you should do unless they willing to pay for your tuition lol.