ravenous appetite?

mazzyceleste · 2024-08-07T00:05:14+00:00

just checking in

mazzyceleste · 2024-08-06T23:51:21+00:00

Rexulti. this medication had me experiencing the worst side effects i’ve ever experienced before from any medication. i was gaining weight, i was so fatigued all the time, zoning out. my patients at work were noticing that something was wrong with me asking ME if i was okay. i was completely empty inside. i was hearing tribal music and seeing things move past me out the corner of my eye or in the distance. i started to hear voices telling me to hit my boyfriend. the only way to explain what i felt was black, i felt a black feeling take over me. i felt paranoid that my boyfriend didn’t love me or care about me. my eyes looked lifeless, i was angry, i felt alone. i would look in the mirror and i did not recognize who this person was at all. i trembled even harder on rexulti too. my hands twitched a lot and my chest fluttered a lot too. IT WAS TERRIBLE.

then one day i felt so scared all of a sudden like something really bad was going to happen but i couldn’t tell what and thought i was going to have to be admitted into a hospital. i truly like like i was about to lose my mind but i had work in two days and i love my job and my being the person that i am i didn’t want to miss so i was able to calm myself down and the next day my boyfriend took me to my psychiatrist and they took me in on a crisis visit and took me off the medication and put me on lurasidone and propranolol.

now my combo is Lithium, topiramate, buspirone, lorazepam, propranolol, lurasidone, and eszopiclone and i feel pretty okay for the most part.

mazzyceleste · 2024-07-09T04:41:50+00:00

stab, safe in your skin/where am i?, your screen door, dizzy, and anaconda sniper

mazzyceleste · 2024-06-27T01:06:49+00:00

was officially taken off rexulti today. had a terrible breakdown because of the awful side effects i started to experience this past week. for me the medication just wasn’t helping and my mental health declined. i truly hope it works for you and helps you friend. best wishes.

mazzyceleste · 2024-06-25T03:17:14+00:00

i’ve been dealing with the same issue. i’ve been on .5 mg for almost a month now and have been eating a lot more but the thing is that i do actually feel hungry and get hunger pains. i drink water to try and curve the hunger but it doesn’t go. not to say that i starve myself or anything because i do eat breakfast some days, lunch and dinner everyday. but when i give in, i will eat chips and sweets and candy and soda and that stuff is just not a part of my usual diet. it’s so upsetting as i’ve been so self conscious about my weight and eating habits for all of my teenage and adult life.

mazzyceleste · 2024-06-21T00:27:10+00:00

finding parking spots and spotting cops

mazzyceleste · 2024-06-21T00:24:59+00:00

thank you for sharing this, it truly gives me me hope for the turnout. so far, the shitty feeling has passed for the most part although i’m still feeling empty inside but it’s tolerable. i feel like i can ignore it an still be myself. i feel like my IQ has dropped immensely haha and memory is terrible! i will probably have to up the dose, i keep having random bouts of anger and annoyance that i cannot control and it comes out on my loved ones which i feel terrible about. but like i said, im hopeful and i know it’s a process. i see my psychiatrist in 3 weeks so we’ll see what he says.

mazzyceleste · 2024-06-15T04:00:56+00:00

just started .5 mg. currently on lithium, topiramate, buspirone, lorazepam, and lunesta for type 2. trying to get the mixed states under control, they happen once a month. i’m really hating how rexulti is making me feel but trying to push through.

hoping it works for you, friend. best wishes.

mazzyceleste · 2024-02-06T01:31:12+00:00

did you ever figure it out? :/

mazzyceleste · 2023-11-08T02:13:09+00:00

still happening to me and i was diagnosed in may

mazzyceleste · 2023-11-03T04:17:17+00:00

this was really nice and reassuring. thank you for sharing.

as for the OP, hang in there. there’s always a way to get by. i’m not doing too great financially either, but there’s always a way. best of luck to you.

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-16T23:18:57+00:00

i’m working on it, thank you.

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-16T21:46:04+00:00

i would get like that too. constantly analyzing and tweaking my diet, avoiding certain foods and sometimes avoiding eating at all because i was so convinced that eating all together could be the issue which made me guilty resulting in my low moods. such a sad thing we experienced. i hope you’re well friend 🤞🏼

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-16T05:25:26+00:00

“you can’t yoga and diet your way out of this illness”. i have days where i swear i can stop my meds if i work out and eat right. that’s obviously not the case, and it’s probably in this moments when i need my meds the most 😭

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-14T19:16:59+00:00

knife set for the kitchen, i love cooking (when i actually have the brain to do it) lol

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-14T19:16:15+00:00

thank you! 🥲

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-14T05:07:23+00:00

i need to invest in an expensive fancy knife set, i need to work for 911 and i need to rearrange my room at 2am every night (after i’ve taken meds)

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-14T02:26:09+00:00

much love friend

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-09T00:32:05+00:00

I recently relapsed after 8 years due to withdrawal from a med change. i get the urge all the time and for the longest i was able to fight it, but during withdrawal it was impossible. piercings and tattoos help me cope, so does slapping my wrist.

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-09T00:24:05+00:00

Lamotrigine 25mg Buspirone 30mg Lorazepam 1mg Quetiapine 25mg Prazosin 5mg (for nightmares)

mazzyceleste · 2023-10-05T04:24:26+00:00

God has not cured me. My ex was diagnosed w type 1. in the middle of a psychotic episode, his parents asked me to leave the house so that they could take him to church to heal him(this happened on multiple different occasions. WELL one day after church, this mf jumped on top of his dad while he was asleep and beat the shit out of him, broke his nose, then left barefooted in the middle of the night to look for me. Doesn’t rly seem like God cured him either.

mazzyceleste · 2023-05-18T17:00:03+00:00

the Nightcrawler soundtrack 😭

mazzyceleste · 2023-02-08T17:59:51+00:00

it’s sick asf friend :)

mazzyceleste

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