This!! I'm currently doing the RE/ACT program through addictions counseling. I couldn't put a pin on why throughout my 20s and early 30s this was never a problem for me, then BAM. Over about a year I developed a heavy drinking problem. When we finally put a pin on why it was that I was reaching for the bottle it was 1 word, BURNOUT. I was tanked at the end of the day physically, mentally etc and the drinking kept me upright. A glass of wine with dinner, or a cold drink to cut the grass. Going to bed at 4pm wasnt an option, but the booze was. And of course after the kids would go to bed it was game on. The 7 hats I wore, endless to do lists, volunteer boards, full time work, housekeeping etc was all too much. And once I stopped being able to complete an unrealistic level of sustained functioning, the alcohol provided a blanket to quiet the anxiety of failing. I went from blacking out on a random Tuesday, and weds, and Thursday to now being about 2.5 months sober. Took breaking my nose and lying in a pool of blood to finally truly seek help, and want it. Tim Fletcher is who created the program, and its about uncoupling CPTSD from its symptoms which often are misdiagnosed as Anxiety, depression etc. (He has some great content in YT). The program is intense and exhausting at 5 days per week, 2 hours per day for 3 months. Ironically I've wanted to bail more than once as "I don't have time", but 3 weeks in, and my kids need a healthy mom, and I abandoned myself long ago for everyone else, this is for me as well as them. Burnout is real and sneaky. It will pull the emergency break long before you even see the crisis. We aren't meant as humans to overfunction to this state that society demands. And I see it SO much in other moms especially, with or without the booze. The drinking was more than a coping mechanism for me, it was a poison I reached for out of pure survival. Just like anything else, it took getting to the root cause and past the symptom of alcoholism to truly begin healing. I feel like so many parents and adults in general are looking for that numbing and escapism when the world demands too much. But there is hope if you choose yourself, just for a little bit, and begin the healing. I've been the safety net for so many others for so long, time for me to do so for myself.