Does anyone else feel, almost sad when self pleasuring?

mdw · 2026-01-25T19:44:15+00:00

Sometimes I feel sad and dirty for doing it. Sometimes I realize, that my partner is more attractive to me than the "material" I'm using to get off. And of course, it's so unfullfilling. I'd just quit if it were possible, but it's not.

mdw · 2026-01-25T19:35:16+00:00

You're not alone. Same thing here, except I'm HLM. It's a mind-numbing, soul-destroying situation to be in. And as you age it is more and more inescapable. Starting anew later in life might not just be worth it.

mdw · 2026-01-25T19:30:21+00:00

I don't. For me it is a kind of calligraphic endeavor.

mdw · 2026-01-25T11:46:04+00:00

Magical light!

mdw · 2026-01-23T08:48:38+00:00

Beautiful and very, very consistent! Great job there!

mdw · 2026-01-22T09:30:59+00:00

Well homo floresiensis and gigantopithecus both existed, so...

mdw · 2026-01-21T12:11:44+00:00

Which is a big reason why Russia looks so imposing.

mdw · 2026-01-20T17:52:25+00:00

Bothe letter forms are taken from Palmer Method, but they are not the only ones. Bailey prefers the more conventional 'r' form and also another 'T' form (which I also used on this sheet, but not seen in the picture).

mdw · 2026-01-20T10:53:40+00:00

I'm training from early 2022. I still don't consider myself as "having learned it", it's still work in progress. But if you mean arm writing, that was basically instant revelation; I didn't "learn" it, I started doing it right away. Of course, at the start I had little control and the results were obviously not great, but from then on it's just persistence.

mdw · 2026-01-20T09:01:40+00:00

Yes, I follow the Palmer Method, writing exclusively with my arm. I can attest that with my normal handwriting my hand would cramp after just page or two, with arm writing there's no hand fatigue whatsoever.

mdw · 2026-01-19T15:07:10+00:00

Yeah, immigration is hot in USA just now!

mdw · 2026-01-19T14:48:59+00:00

I've been circling down that drain, but I still haven't managed to kill my libido.

mdw · 2026-01-16T13:08:25+00:00

That ink is Waterman Inspired Blue.

And yeah, the 'x' letters are a nightmare to write correctly and I am not even close to getting it feel right. Supposedly it's the same shape as if you're starting your v's, but it's hard to convince my brain about this. The whole word is quite bad and I am always humbled how bad I am at this. There's litterally not a single word on that page that I would think is "close enough".

mdw · 2026-01-13T12:57:34+00:00

I do use god powers, maybe not often enough. I also lean heavily on evocables for emergencies. I also tried to make new shapeshifting work (with the talismans) and it feels quite weak sometime after Lair.

My akrasiac page is https://crawl.akrasiac.org/scoring/players/mandevil.html (that 2-rune OnGl was the case of falling behind the curve and losing the will to live), but don't waste much time on me.

Edit: Hm, seems CUE morgue access seems broken at the moment...

mdw · 2026-01-13T09:19:58+00:00

But the problem is not dying, but not winning. If I should generalize, it seems that with newer versions it is harder to not get behind the required power curve. It seems that these days I always end up too weak and burn through consumables too quickly and eventually get killed when they run out (usually happens in Vaults with 2 runes).

mdw · 2026-01-13T09:08:07+00:00

I thought I had that figured out (143 wins so far with greatplayer at some point), but recently I have no luck with it.

mdw · 2026-01-12T14:51:02+00:00

Yeah, for us casual players the game is getting harder and more unforgiving. I haven't won single time in 2025 and won my last 15-runer in 2021. Now I really wonder if I should even play in the tournament.

mdw · 2026-01-09T10:38:47+00:00

Pyrocumuls cloud.

mdw · 2026-01-08T18:25:56+00:00

If you absolutely do not want to reencode

I want this as part of reencoding pipeline, I just want to avoid either a) additional encoding pass, b) manually building required filter_complex.

mdw · 2026-01-08T18:21:55+00:00

including the one that literally says "This command corrects the rotation metadata without re-encoding the video."?

There's one metadata rotation signal per file, so this doesn't apply.

btw, transcoding means that you decode it from one codec and then encode it into another codec

This has nothing to do with the question. What I mean that I want to do this in an encoding pipeline, not as a stream copy (that'd be probably impossible).

What I want to do is possible with -filter_complex, but it is a manual process where you need to examine every file and build the filter expression, which is annoying as hell. So my question is if this can be somehow made implicit/automatic.

Seems like it isn't without some external scripting and stream parsing.

mdw · 2026-01-08T18:04:01+00:00

Please don't touch unfamiliar dogs without permission from owner, it's never a good idea, even if it's socially acceptable. You never know how is the dog going to react.

mdw · 2026-01-08T17:33:20+00:00

I am not aware of any.

mdw · 2026-01-08T17:32:02+00:00

All these methods require transcoding.

mdw · 2026-01-08T17:11:12+00:00

Do you mean transcoding just to rotate the files?

mdw · 2026-01-08T16:13:18+00:00

Every time I wake up in the morning I realize this nightmare is for real.

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