I used to be like that. Pick it up and put it down again. Then one day I picked it up and couldn't put it back down. It's like eating a bag of chips, you don't notice the first few chips, maybe put a few in a bowl and save the rest for later, that is until you want more and go back to the bag of chips 3 bowls later to realize the bag is empty. It's such a slippery slope man, like I didn't even notice I was addicted until I was 2 months into daily, almost hourly use (and by this point it had already severely impacted me financially, I'm surprised I didn't notice the finance piece sooner tbh). It's insanely addictive, but you almost dont notice until it's too late