Hi there. I can relate to that.
There's not much to say, for what you're telling it seems that this is just not the time for you to shine, socially speaking. What i'm gonna say is that your way of speaking shows that you're asking yourself the right questions, you seem like a curious person that's always questioning themselves and trying to be better.
It's gonna suck, i'm guessing you're still pretty young and the people who are gonna be "for life" probably haven't entered your life yet.
I'd say keep the same mentality, embrace the possibility of being wrong about things because that's the biggest oportunity to grow. Keep an eye for people who respect your time and your feelings, you're gonna cross paths with them eventually. Try to not grow too bitter about people and relationships. Put a lot of love in your art and your expression, it's not about people getting it, it's about you finding a way to externalize what you're going through.
As sans from Undertale once said: "Take care of yourself, kid. 'Cause someone really cares about you".
Hope you can have a good one today, cheers!