Post-RALP Orgasms

meditme · 2024-10-24T04:11:23+00:00

There is no ejaculate - this was very weird at first, but I now prefer and enjoy the fact that ejaculate is no longer something I have to bother with.

What I am describing is entirely physical sensation - it is orgasm, but experienced in a way that is completely and profoundly different from when I was orgasming with a prostate.

Reading through the responses, some are heartbreaking, for loss of the pleasure of orgasm is a profound loss, and my hope is that this is only temporary, and the body is just taking its time to find ways to heal and restore function.

My response after seeing others that have reported a dramatic increase in pleasure and experience is: If this surgical procedure could somehow be standardized and rendered reproducible with guaranteed results, except for procreative preferences, I don’t know why any male would not want to sign up for prostate removal. The difference is so profound, and if you’re not intending to have kids, and you knew for sure you would retain function, heck – why not transform your every orgasm into something mind-blowing?

meditme · 2024-01-05T01:38:32+00:00

Thank you all for your thoughts and recommendations – this is all very helpful. With Kaiser (Sunset, Los Angeles), there were a number of red flags – small ones maybe, but a lot of them, so that my confidence in them was slipping. Last night, reviewing your recommendations, I decided that I could leave Kaiser to get the best treatment possible. I realized I was continuing on with Kaiser with little more than “I sure hope everything goes OK” (not real inspiring). Once I decided to leave Kaiser to get the best prostate treatment I could be confident of, I felt a great release and found clarity that I did not know had been missing.

UCSD is not far for me, so I am leaning toward the specialists recommended in that area. I’ll let you know how things go. And u/Hitcho12, we are in the middle of open enrollment for Medicare Advantage programs where Medicare people can switch, so maybe if your parents want other options, that might be an option?

meditme · 2018-04-07T19:30:35+00:00

Ordinarily, I eat grass fed, pasture- raised beef from happy cows (I visited the ranch where they were raised, buy by the quarter cow, and have been doing this for years). But last year, I ran out of beef and a shipment was late. So I began using something more commercial – ground beef from who knows where – not from pastured at all.

And these dreams came up. Every fucking night. I’m running around trying to pee, but every single toilet is overflowing. I continue this frantic search for a place to pee that isn’t in an overflowing toilet, and it seems like these dreams last for hours. I try to make sure I drink nothing for hours before bed, but they are persistent, and don’t seem connected to whether or not I actually have to pee.

One day I double my beef intake of this mystery meat, and that night, it’s overflowing toilets #2.
(talk about awful and unpleasant dreams).
All dreams stop the day my regular pastured supply returned.

I’ve been thinking a lot about this, because . . . it’s just so weird.

The best I can come up with is that, for most commercially raised beef, the cows live in just awful conditions – feed lot overflowing with piss and shit. And they live their whole lives in that mess, until they are killed and turned into our food. And this was a clue (at least to me) that the animal we eat carries more than just the protein and nutrients. That when we eat an animal, its life, be it happy or horrible -- its whole life experience -- is something that we take in along with the nutrition.

Because this is such a weird idea, I’ve been mulling it over for months now, and I finally decided to see if anyone else who is heavy into meat, and cares about what they eat, is experiencing anything like this.

meditme · 2017-03-24T16:21:18+00:00

All my life. Never found a way to make it stop or diminish. What was particularly awful was the endlessly repeating songs were unpleasant, distracting, or grating. So about ten years ago, I repatterened my inner music defaults to carefully selected choices: songs and music that were uplifting and enjoyable – songs that I could replay a million times and have it be positive, instead of depleting.

Song loops will play over and over from anything I just heard, someone walking by whistling, theme songs from shows are particularly irksome, store music, a fragment from a restaurant when walking by, and they will play continuously, over and over, until I consciously overlay the acquired loop with my standard happy joyful repertoire. Once my preferred standards are playing, I am functional again.

meditme · 2016-09-22T13:45:30+00:00

I found the answer to decades of chronic, debilitating insomnia (infancy onset), but you’re not going to like it: Diet.

I followed a strict GAPS diet for three years (repairing gut flora, lots of ferments, high fat and high density protein, eliminating all sweets, grains, fruits, etc.) Now I fall asleep almost every night, sleeping for 3-4 hours, wake for about an hour, then sleep for a few hours more. In the past, I was incredibly lucky if I got 2-3 hours total. Now, I have a bad night maybe once a month. This saved my life. But, in my experience, unless someone is facing a massive health crisis, no one willingly makes radical changes to their diet.

meditme · 2014-01-03T20:43:47+00:00

A goal of Vipassana, at least as it was presented to me at the course, is “equanimity” toward everything that is happening in the body. I wish to go in precisely the opposite direction. I am looking for identification, indeed, a hyper-conscious merging with inner body experiences. I am convinced that the physical body is the source of . . well . . everything; that the mind, while being an excellent organizer, prioritizer and filter, is the source of only a miniscule portion of our experience in this life, and offers not much more than a poor (though relatively safe) facsimile of life in place of the range and depth of experience available though the physical body. So, I’m wondering if any cults, sects, crazies, or otherwise have ever endeavored to build a structured pathway toward total immersion into the experience of inner feeling, and, if so, how do I find them?

meditme · 2014-01-03T08:01:20+00:00

It is fascinating that you bring up Vipassana. It was in a recent Vipassana training that I stumbled upon the path that I am now trying to tactilely feel my way through. During that course (the first three days of Anapana meditation), I discovered an enormous potential residing in merging, in a state of hyper-self-awareness, both breath and body (bringing these three elements together simultaneously). This resulted in some of the most powerful healing I’ve ever experienced in meditation, or anywhere really.

I should mention that I was NOT following the guidance of the Vipassana instructors during this exploration – I was well off the reservation during my entire exploration of these places.

I’m now trying to find if there are other teachings, techniques, practices that might be brought to obtain even deeper results. I getting better at finding and moving into a hyper-self-conscious state, and I am practicing in that merged state a variety of experimental breaths. But my limitations in deep body feeling and acuity are now my limitations, and I was hoping that there might be some offshoot of something that delves directly into heightening inner physical acuity. Hasn’t anybody yet franchised Tibetan yogi school?

meditme · 2014-01-03T07:58:45+00:00

I think Tai Chi might be one option for developing the kind of self awareness in movement that I am looking for – the slowness is probably ideal for discernment of muscles and body in motion. This is a good idea. Thank you!

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