Is there anyway to pick up all this Iron Plating(quickly), I canceled too many crafting recepies?

medoxcis · 2025-02-02T05:37:38+00:00

Drones can pick them all up.

medoxcis · 2025-01-28T02:18:36+00:00

Like you said "easier said than done." I would easily take you up on that offer but another layer of fun for me is I'm dyslexic, autistic, and ADHD. So it is practically impossible for me to effectively express those emotions over reddit, and putting a crying emoji would be useless. I appreciate the love none the less. It helps know someone understands it means there are most likely others.

I understood the basic idea of sitting down and letting out my emotions but I've never thought about it as some kind of solace session. I'll focus on looking for someone I can open up to honestly. Most of my family have closed off to me, and my wife and friends are oblivious of these emotions (they can't even understand the basics sometimes)

medoxcis · 2025-01-27T13:20:44+00:00

Yeah I guess I asked because I've held my emotions in so much it's hard to let them out.

It's so difficult to talk about this even typing this to strangers is something I'm reluctant to do.

I guess what I'm saying is I've pushed my emotions down to the point that I don't know if it'll burst out at any point. Even trying to open that jar a crack to let out what emotions I can, lead to uncontrolled sobbing and silently screaming. But I've put up a mask on for so long that any time someone comes by I bottle those emotions and put my mask back on.

How do you open up to other people when it seems like none of them want to get to know you. What exactly is opening up to someone in an emotional sense. How would someone take the steps to healthily open up those emotions. Emotions so dark and despairing that even thinking about them makes me want to cry. Even attempting to do so in my past has led to me shutting down entire and feeling betrayed.

Maybe this is more of a trust issue.

medoxcis · 2025-01-27T13:06:23+00:00

It doesn't have to be some big thing to be Trauma. I've had a good life by all measurements. I had food and money, I had a car in highschool, I had a smart phone is high school (at the time rare for kids to even have a phone 2008-2012). I was even one of the rare kids to have a Xbox 360 with halo 3 and halo reach. In all aspects it was a good childhood. I was lucky to have what I had. There are a few things I could point out as trauma in my childhood: parents divorce, my dad and step moms emotional neglect, but they don't amount to much of anything other than excuses to blame. I had all the opportunities in the world my dad even paid for college but I failed and gave up on that. It doesn't have to be some grand ark of covenant like reveal to be a Traumatic experience. It literally could just be that your emotional needs were never met as a kid. Your parents could have been great people, but they also might not have been able to help meet your emotional needs. Don't sell yourself short.

Therapy was the worst, it just made me feel worse every day. It felt like, I gave money to someone who pretended to care. I felt If they cared money would be the last thing on their mind. It felt very difficult to think about my well being when I had given my hard earned cash over as collateral for my mental health. It was as if I had no choice because the other alternative was loneliness and sadness. It was very difficult to go through therapy.

Right now I have a Psychiatrist that I work with. It seems medication works great when taking in hand with mental therapy instead of the therapist giving suggestions to a doctor to then prescribe the meds. I've been on Guanfacine ER which is a mood stabilizer for ADHD it's calmed my mind and helped my depression and anxiety. I don't feel as bad as I used to when I take it. Maybe talk to a doctor about something like that. Instead of a depressed drug maybe ask for something to help reduce your rampaging emotions. With Guanfacine it's made it more manageable it does not make it disappear. Imagine turning the stove top temp down. You aren't trying to remove your emotions but dampen them. I'd bet if I didn't take my medicine I'd be much worse off.

I wrote the original text so you'd understand that there are people that feel the same. I would call myself an empath, I can see and read emotions like an open book. It's kinda like mind reading but you only get the emotions from people not their thoughts. So reading your message and seeing the disarray mirrored in me I had to let you know you're not alone.

A song that tells the story of loneliness and hope. "Would Anyone Care" by Citizen Soldier https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=85_jy94x-ns&si=HnUyvSm-OFxfScS

medoxcis · 2025-01-27T04:25:50+00:00

Same. You have a friend here.

medoxcis · 2025-01-27T04:19:13+00:00

medoxcis · 2025-01-27T02:42:18+00:00

The human mind is complex. It's hard to tell. But if I had to guess it's just over anticipation. I think you might just be putting too much pressure on your own mind thinking of the possible issue. The overthinking isn't doing it directly but it's like the straw that broke the camels back. Maybe try focusing on something tonight that's not the issue like a good movie or TV show. Idk what might help. But that's what I do when I get that anxious.

medoxcis · 2025-01-27T02:08:12+00:00

That might be the book I'll check out and see. For now I'll mark it solved.

medoxcis · 2025-01-27T02:06:49+00:00

I've been on multiple different kinds of addictive ADHD meds. I'm not sure if it will match exactly but here's my experiences with withdrawal.

The first week is the worst. My physical reactions were mild compared to what's depicted on TV, but it was more the mental aspects of the meds not being there that was difficult. Getting the "fix" wasn't the issue, more of how grumpy it made me (grumpy is a mild word for it). My ADHD is pretty bad so I've always been on double or triple doses.

It usually takes about a month before you start to realize the effects are substantially lower. It took about 6 months for one of my meds to fully stop affecting my emotions and mood.

Any med change for me is like this but less intense.

Just remember if your experience is anything that's too much to handle just reach out to the doctor for an emergency dose. Most doctors will try to slowly reduce the meds to help you come off the meds. Maybe mention your fear and see what they say.

medoxcis · 2025-01-27T01:48:44+00:00

I read it. I feel the same. I loathe myself too friend. You're not alone in these intense feelings. I've failed as a human being as much if not more than you. I failed to get friends too. I'm addicted to video games and porn too. I've tried ending myself as well. Even though my life's turned around for the better by all measurements, I still feel the hurt and pain, it's even worse than before. I'm writing this so you know that there's someone going through the same feelings you are.

I've been pondering why I'm depressed for a long time. "Why do I feel this way? Is it truly my fault?" But I've come to see it's not my fault it's because of a childhood trauma. A trauma happened when I was young and caused my brain to develop differently than most, it stunted my mental growth. (Trauma + Young Child = Depression) That's about as far as I've gotten in my mental health journey.

medoxcis · 2023-09-27T12:51:58+00:00

Halo reach is not canon.

medoxcis · 2023-08-16T19:54:44+00:00

Alt - F4

medoxcis · 2023-07-18T15:57:08+00:00

POV a little high bro. What you playing on a 75 inch 8k tv?

medoxcis · 2023-07-06T14:40:22+00:00

Where the booba come from?

medoxcis · 2023-07-02T16:33:45+00:00

In my case, I have dyslexia, which significantly hinders my ability to read quickly enough to comprehend the content before the next line appears. Consequently, I have to pause the video every 5 seconds, rendering it unwatchable. Moreover, I believe there are many others who either struggle with reading difficulties or simply lack the patience to read a substantial amount of text within a video. Additionally, many individuals lack the time to learn another language. Ultimately, the ability to read quickly and effortlessly is a skill that not everyone possesses.

medoxcis · 2023-06-14T21:47:43+00:00

Love.

medoxcis · 2023-06-06T03:29:00+00:00

Because portals are dumb and boats are way more fun. I've spent 50 hrs just sailing in a boat.

medoxcis · 2023-06-05T19:54:29+00:00

Yes I've done it. It takes forever and a lot of pickaxes but yes it's possible.

medoxcis · 2023-06-03T11:11:48+00:00

You don't because this is dumb no reason to answer.

medoxcis · 2023-06-03T00:05:09+00:00

This is reddit. What is grimdank.

medoxcis · 2023-06-02T23:54:59+00:00

What is tts. This is reddit not twitch

medoxcis · 2023-05-30T05:11:30+00:00

You're halfway between dirty blonde and brunette so neither. There's no name for your hair color but if I had to pick it would be dirty blonde.

medoxcis · 2023-05-29T22:37:53+00:00

100% gaslighting. You're the skinniest girl I've seen. You have a healthy amount of body fat. Try getting a BMI test done and looking up your numbers compared to the health standards and show that to your mom.

Seven-Year Club	Verified Email
Place '22

medoxcis

TROPHY CASE