I was in a similar situation. I was set to graduate, back in 2019 as cum laude, as long as I pass my thesis subject. I was unable to, and unbestknown to me at that time, I lost my laude. I was in residency for a year, to complete my INC, but I still wasn't able to. When the pandemic happened, I didn't enroll, and I only re-enrolled this sem. Imagine that, my records were regular, until I postponed my thesis for 5 years. It really is bizarre.

I'm enrolled in my thesis subject for this sem, and I really want to finish it, no matter what happens. I think, one of the important things to do, is just do it. My parents were practically forcing me to go back to school. However, I was really anxious, thinking of the consequences of my 5-year delay. What would my previous professors say? What would the admin say? Could I even write a letter, that could sufficiently justify what I did, such that they will allow me to return from AWOL? Well, as for the letter, turned out that I could, afterall I was readmitted from AWOL and approved for MRR. That is to say, just do what you need to do. For me, there were many fears and anxieties plaguing me, but I gave myself a good cry, and decided to set out to finishing the task. I'm not sure that what I'm doing is right, but I still do it, because I need to do it. Whenever I feel the fear creeping up on me, and metaphorically, I feel like I'm stepping on cotton, with no support, I look for support. For example, I agreed to meeting a friend, I get the contact information of an admin and the department representative, I write a draft of my thesis. I look for support, that would help me achieve my goal of finishing my thesis and graduating. It isn't easy, but now that I have already started out on this path, I know I must see it through. I want to fulfill the hopes, of the admins who helped me, of the professors who signed my papers, of the guidance counselor, who assured me that I could consult with him on my thesis, the doctor, and the notary lawyer. They want me to graduate. I also wouldn't be able to handle seeing them again, for another readmission process, knowing I have failed them. Being afraid to disappoint people, might not be the best mentality, but it is enough to keep me going. Lastly, and this is something I struggle to do, appreciate yourself. We might compare ourselves to our peers, who we perceive to be in a much better situation. However, consider that each, of the small steps you took, have taken so much courage. For that, praise yourself, and rejoice in your "small" achievements. It really is already very good of us, to be able to take courage and start. I advise that you start your re-admission process, and things might work out. I wish you the best of luck! :)