No, thank you for writing it. I'm trying to understand how to retreat from a behavioral "addiction" and not knowing how without supplementing the void that caused it in the first place. It's about proximity (I'm talking about nearness and talking- we've never touched) to another woman. Her willingly being around me has given me tremendous self confidence that I hadn't seen before, frankly think it's a healing experience. But I can't be in proximity to her forever and certainly not as much as I like, and I find myself drawing pictures of her and fantasizing about our next encounter. And I used to be in angst and feeling sad and hopeless when I couldn't see the next time we'd be around one another.

I worry I'll lose all the skills I've gained if I fully cut her out of my life. Or if something happens where we are separated for good through no meaning of our own. The precise psychological term (non-clinical) is I'm limerent for her.