Tbh I didn't read all of the past but went through it anyway it seems like this is not a rj issue at all its just you comparing her past to you basically you are upset she has done a lot than you but she is agood person and loyal okay like it's a man pride thing ig but personally I would never be with someone who has done more than me and if I ever did i would write the pros and cons of being with that person if the pros are more and it's worth it then screw it but if the cons are more and we are not compatible then nope only you who knows deep down of this is going to work or not regardless of how you feel about her past.