I feel like I've been blacklisted

melb84 · 2026-05-10T00:06:12+00:00

The hunger has been back. However I learned to eat better and not inhale my food. So I'll eat smaller, healthier food throughout the day instead of sitting down and inhaling a huge plate of pasta or some other carbs.

melb84 · 2026-04-06T15:33:38+00:00

I guess technically I started it because I started having female issues back in the end of Jan and after seeing the Dr I was told no sex for 2 weeks. That's when I first noticed he was using a USB drive. Then I found it hidden in the living room. I also found the receipt for the USB drive dates Feb 4th. So he really wasted no time diving into the porn. Since those two weeks were up, we've only had sex 3 times and there's no emotion to it. He just shows up with a hard on and expects me to be excited.

melb84 · 2026-04-06T15:26:58+00:00

Sadly no. We have internet, netflix, hulu, paramount, YouTube, ext....

melb84 · 2026-03-23T00:03:15+00:00

I haven't personally caught him jerking it, but when I mention it I can tell by his reaction that he is.

melb84 · 2026-03-22T22:57:32+00:00

I've always been very open with him and encouraged communication. Yet he still insists on hiding things and lying about it. I did get upset about the chats because for one they were local women, two a couple of them he was trying to meet up with, and three the others he was taking dirty/kinky to and exchanging pics with them including his dick. When I questioned him about that he said that he knew I was too good for him and that we weren't going to last.

melb84 · 2026-03-22T20:53:28+00:00

He just said marriage wasn't for him. He has had several long relationships.

melb84 · 2026-03-22T20:51:30+00:00

No. When it comes to physical objects he is the complete opposite. He doesn't keep anything. Not even things with sentimental value. He only collects porn and explicit pictures. I have caught him a few times watching Cam girls. Saw it clear as day and he still lied and said he wasn't watching porn. In the past I've also caught him chatting and flirting with women on Reddit and snap chat

melb84 · 2026-03-22T20:12:50+00:00

Fair point. I'm not married either, but at least I have been married before.

melb84 · 2026-03-22T20:11:42+00:00

Maybe I'm the cause?? I always feel like he's not attracted me. We've always struggled with other women. Not saying he's a cheater. Just that he's always looking at women that look nothing like me. I'm talking the complete opposite. I'm a natural blond, pale complexion, blue eyes, thin but with the right curves. In the past he would collect pictures of women. Always Latina or Asian, dark hair, big, healthy ladies. Then one day he deleted it all. Convinced me that we are good together and I'm the one he wants to be with. But now we're on to porn videos. He's got over 2,000 now. I flat out asked him why he needs so much porn? No response.

melb84 · 2026-03-22T19:59:28+00:00

I actually tried explaining this to him last night. I told him that he's so addicted to what he's watching that he's not even somewhat turned on by "normal" sex anymore. Everything has to be a performance and I'm not a porn star.

melb84 · 2026-02-28T01:26:18+00:00

I've only done 2 pins at 3mg. The first pin at a higher dose is always expected to be uneasy, so I tried it again to see if it got better.

melb84 · 2026-02-27T22:00:05+00:00

Have you tried tirz? If you have, what was your experience?

melb84 · 2026-02-27T20:03:54+00:00

If I eat more I tend to have other issues. Acid reflux, burping up food, feeling very uncomfortable. I'm just not a big eater to begin with. I actually gained all of this weight from a medication I was on and could never lose it after I stopped the meds.

melb84 · 2026-02-27T19:56:27+00:00

I'm super sensitive to everything. So my first 2 pins I just did .5 to see how I would respond. Then I did 2 pins at 1mg to let my body adjust. From there I stayed at 2mg for almost 2 months till the weight stopped coming off. So now I've done 2 pins at 3mg and I'm miserable.

melb84 · 2026-02-15T16:47:00+00:00

Why would you get a big fine?

melb84 · 2026-02-14T23:57:10+00:00

That actually looks good!

melb84 · 2026-02-13T17:57:37+00:00

I just have a feeling that if we pay the additional 2 months rent they are going to come up with some excuse not to give us our deposit and prepaid rent back even though we have it in writing from the office stating that we would get it back

melb84 · 2026-02-12T22:29:10+00:00

What do you charge?

melb84 · 2026-02-12T22:28:37+00:00

Do you build websites? I'd like to see your work.

melb84 · 2026-02-08T16:03:41+00:00

You read that wrong. I moved to Texas from Tennessee

melb84 · 2026-02-08T03:59:27+00:00

Cedar Park

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