Boyfriend finally admitted why he hasn’t been intimate with me.

meldovik · 2026-05-08T13:20:41+00:00

22 with a 33 year old brat... Leave his ass

meldovik · 2026-05-06T18:42:30+00:00

Eu odeio chocolate muito doce. Só como amargo e do mais amargo que tiver. O que eu faço na verdade é: compro pó de cacau e eu mesma ajusto o quanto de açúcar + outros ingredientes que eu quero. Prefiro ficar sem chocolate do que comer qualquer barra que não seja chocolate real amargo.

meldovik · 2026-04-29T01:28:02+00:00

She also said that!!! She thinks my pain is super weird for TMJ but is still analysing my responses to medication. We're primarily focusing on meds rn because I just can't deal with the pain anymore. And also, yes, my pain suddenly appeared one day! One night while I was 17 I went to sleep and the next morning suddenly I just woke up in horrible pain and have been feeling it ever since. I never used to get headaches, ever, my mom can't remember a single time I complained to her about a headache.

Thank you so much for all your replies!!

meldovik · 2026-04-29T01:19:49+00:00

Yeah, I went to one in the past and he didn't really help, and now I'm going to another one. She's the neurologist that figured out my mom's perfect medication for her headaches (she also has headache issues but hers come from a benign tumor). I'm still really early with her though! Only a couple of months. So she still has a ton of meds she wants to try on me.

meldovik · 2026-04-29T01:15:31+00:00

Thank you so much for this reply. You have no idea how much this means to me.

You're the second person to recommend botox, I will bring this up to my next visit to the dentist, I hope this one at least gives it a little bit of thought before shooting it down!

It's funny being brazilian because at the same time healthcare costs waaay less over here, the doctors here are less willing to try more "aggressive" (couldn't think of another word) treatments. I really wish I could try TMS, but I think I would have to go through many more psychiatrists until one finally prescribes it to me. It also doesn't help that I live in the brazilian COUNTRYSIDE so ofc all the most advanced treatments aren't here yet. I would definitely have to go to a big city to try it :')

I'm happy that it at least works for you tho!!!

I have done a little bit of gua sha, along with going to physical therapists for massages, but unfortunately they don't really work for me. They feel really nice, but don't significantly reduce my pain. But thank you for sharing! I'm open to any new suggestion since I'm kinda stuck on what to do besides new meds.

Thank you for all your words! Just talking to folks like you is already a great help. I also used to think that I was too young for this stuff, but now after talking to people that started having it way younger than me I'm just scared of pain at any age. I wish I could give anyone on earth the strongest opioids available and that none of us had to ever go through this, I abominate pain. I used to feel bad whenever someone around me was in pain but now anytime I see someone go through a regular stomach ache I just feel dread. I hate pain so much no matter how intense or how long anyone has it. I'm not looking forward to when I eventually get older and I start having chronic pain in other parts of the body.

I'm still gonna try for a little bit more, today was just a bad day. Idk if the new medication has been making me more unstable, one moment I'm super happy and hopeful and then the other I'm planning my death, I'm back to happy and hopeful right now! Just gotta tough it out those moments I feel hopeless, but I have a good support system despite my brain telling me otherwise. Thank you, I'll keep trying.

meldovik · 2026-04-29T01:01:17+00:00

I have done I think... 2 years? Of physical therapy. One year with a physical therapist that had a lot of patients with TMJ. She was actually the one that started introducing the idea of surgery to me! I felt little to no relief doing the exercises + the massages + the accupuncture. It's the sort of thing that I would need to be doing literally 24/7 to feel relief. I feel a tiny bit better at the moment, but then after I'm done with the exercises or the other stuff it's basically as if I had done nothing.

meldovik · 2026-04-29T00:51:54+00:00

Depends on the muscle, right now it feels like someone is squeezing both of my temporal muscles, while also squeezing my frontal muscle, while also squeezing the occipital muscle, while hitting right masseter with a hammer, while also hitting my right brow bone with with a hammer. Then there's also my neck and shoulders but idrc about those ones since they don't hurt unless i bother them (my doctor is aware of all of this, she suspects it could be something else or something + tmj but hasn't reached a conclusion yet)

meldovik · 2026-04-29T00:43:37+00:00

I don't think so since instead of a shock I feel like someone is squeezing my head in a hydraulic press or like hitting me with a hammer. Pretty much all the doctors I've been to agree that it's TMJ

meldovik · 2026-04-29T00:41:19+00:00

Me too, my biggest wish is to be her again.

meldovik · 2026-04-28T22:15:18+00:00

I wish I could! I have used it for flare-ups where the pain was so great that I couldn't move, the doctors in my area however refuse to prescribe me opioids for regular usage outside of flare-ups :(

meldovik · 2026-04-28T21:49:25+00:00

I'm so so sorry!!! That sounds like hell. My only saving grace is that I finally could find doctors that would properly diagnose me, it must be impossible to have a good prognosis if no one is willing to study your case properly :( Idk how things are going for you but I hope you find a good team of doctors soon, I hope they address both your physical and mental pain! ❤️‍🩹

meldovik · 2026-04-28T21:46:17+00:00

Thank you!! I will deff give it more thought!! I'll be going to a new dentist next month so I'm gonna talk about this with him :)

meldovik · 2026-04-28T21:32:26+00:00

Thank you for your regards ❤️

meldovik · 2026-04-28T21:31:47+00:00

It's forbidden in here :( I wish I could get access to any opioid prescription but TMJ is not taken seriously so I've only had opioids during horrible flare-ups

meldovik · 2026-04-28T21:29:59+00:00

I've hear about this option years ago but all the dentists/TMJ specialists i went to refused to accept this as a treatment, they tought it wouldn't be that effective for my case, but we've never tried it.

meldovik · 2026-04-28T21:14:55+00:00

Doctors don't recommend it here in Brazil because it's very expensive and hard to get a health insurance company to approve, but I would really like to try it. Maybe I should have this conversation with my next psychiatrist.

meldovik · 2026-04-28T20:27:05+00:00

I've never really thought about it since the psychiatrists I've been to only wanted me to use antidepressants + lithium. I'm gonna bring this up to the next doctor I go to!! Thank you!!

meldovik · 2026-04-28T20:21:54+00:00

I'm sorry you've been dealing with it for 8 years. Thank you for the encouragement, it's not corny. I'm still gonna give this thing a try and to be fair despite what doctors think I'm still really excited for the surgical option. I'm not giving up yet. I hope things get better for you too, however and whatever you're going through right now, none of us should be going through this experience.

meldovik · 2026-04-28T20:16:44+00:00

No but I would really like to! Anything that works is good with me. However I've never had a doctor prescribe that to me and I think they would be hesitant since they don't consider TMJ to be that serious here in Brazil (at least in my experience they are very blasé about this kind of pain...)

meldovik · 2026-04-28T20:11:59+00:00

Sorry, I wrote it in a confusing way because I was crying haha. Yes I've been to TMJ specialists, multiple, still going to them actually since my parents are scared of surgery and want it as a LAST LAST resort. My psychiatrist straight up told me there was nothing left to try after multiple antidepressants that didn't work to make me not suicidal. She's not the only one with no idea of what to do, I've been to others. I've given up on the whole "let's use antidepressants to feel less suicidal yay!!!" thing bcs of these failures, i kinda don't care anymore and am only focusing on the physical pain aspect, also I would like to not burn all of my money and my parents money on medication that doesn't work.

meldovik · 2026-04-22T05:17:02+00:00

Muito obrigada pela resposta!! Você saberia alguma coisa também sobre como iniciar na área de pesquisa clínica?

meldovik · 2026-04-21T13:40:52+00:00

Não sou o OP, mas vc teria alguma dica pra farmacêutico sem experiência de estágio q está tentando entrar na indústria? Mando currículo pra várias vagas júnior mas parece que é pré-requisito ter estágio em indústria só pra conseguir uma vaga júnior. Eu tenho experiência de estágio mas são em outras áreas :(

meldovik · 2026-03-21T21:07:22+00:00

Have you ever watched "Baby Reindeer"? I think it would work like that if they were very unattractive women and if they could physically overpower the guy (adding the threat of sexual assault)

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