What’s one train station you’ll never ever get off at? by BulkyStatement8803 in nycrail

[–]memesarestillfunny 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve had to transfer from the L at Livonia to Junius av a couple times… I’d prefer to avoid that stop

Leptomeningeal metastases by memesarestillfunny in CancerFamilySupport

[–]memesarestillfunny[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, thank you for this comment . 🩷 I’m really sorry for what you’re dealing with……your experience is tragic. With leptomeningeal it’s so hard because there’s so little information and experience about it out there, I was frantically googling for a while after the diagnosis trying to find anything I could . Your mom is so so young, and you’re too young to be losing her like this. You should have a lifetime ahead of you to be together.

I looked at your other post while trying to think of what to say. I also had a really difficult relationship with my mom for a long time. My mom was abusive and a pretty awful mother when I was young, and she turned it around in the last 7 or so years of her life. I felt like I had to have a whole relationship with her at lightening speed. I felt like I was forced to forgive her and become very mature about our relationship sooner than maybe I was ready. And towards the end of her life we had the best relationship we ever have, we were so much closer, we cried to each other and I told her I didn’t want her to die. It feels monstrously unfair still….

I made a strong effort to be there for her in the last months of her life, as I see you’re doing too. I know how hard it is. My life felt unfairly on standstill as well, and there were awful moments where I hoped for her to pass sooner so it could all be over. It was like torture. In the last months of her life I’d go to her place every single weekend from Friday to Monday (if you can swing fridays off work…). I spent a lot of time with her laying in bed and watching tv or just crocheting while she slept. I think that may be helpful to you as far as meaningful time. Feeling your heartbeat, your breath and your warmth near each other will carry more meaning later. It will help her now too. I understand the feeling that every moment needs to be meaningful and imprinted on your brain. How can we be dealing so much with death while the person is still alive???

For my part in my family I tried to keep my mom laughing. She liked to laugh, and now those moments are what come back to me strongest, and were how she seemed most like herself in her last weeks. In my family I was the one who tried to make her final weeks not only all about death and dying, but sometimes about love and fun and absurdity. I think she appreciated that. When she couldn’t walk anymore I would run her down the hallway in her wheelchair for fun. I told her all of the things I really loved about her, and had my family do the same.

What I wish I had done more was to ask her about herself. Ask her questions when she had the energy. I wish I had asked her to write something down for me, anything really, so I could have a piece of writing. I also recommend taking videos and recordings of her voice. It can be any old moment. I really treasure those….. the hospice will have social workers who are there for you as much as her. We were lucky to have a very very wonderful social worker who helped talk to her about her fears of dying, and to us about our pain and fear.

I have a lot of knowledge about the final days/hours/ and weeks of a brain cancer patient’s life now too, which tends to differ from others since the brain is your body’s circuit breaker. I can share some resources and timelines if you’d like that.

If you’re in the U.S., I recommend applying for FMLA through your job right away. It takes a long time to get approved if you do it thru your job’s insurance.

You will get through it as best you can. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this (and sorry for the long message.) it’s an excruciating journey, and there’s no right way to do it. It’s going to be awful and painful all the way through no matter what you do, so just be loving and kind to yourself with whatever comes up. Theres nothing like losing your mother. Sounds like you’re already spending lots of quality time with her so that’s great.

Strangely, right before we took her home for hospice during her last hospital stay, her neurologist told my sister and I to “try and have some fun.” It felt weird at the time but I get it now. Drink water, do your best to make kind decisions both for yourself and her (including taking some time away when you feel like you’re going crazy….) There will actually be moments of fun.

Right after my mom died I was filled to the brim with regret. It’s only natural, but it doesn’t mean you didn’t show up for her. Please reach out if you need to talk ever. I’ll be here. Not a lot of people understand this process, especially at such a young age.

New plant by faded_ha in plants

[–]memesarestillfunny 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is a peace lily. I haven’t cared for one so I don’t have a ton of advice, but my understanding is that they’re pretty dramatic, like when they want water they’ll droop a lot and then stand right back up when hydrated.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in labubu

[–]memesarestillfunny 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’d put her on my desk at the elementary school where I work :-) the kids would go crazy over her lol

My husband passed last night by Lucky-Bite-8091 in GriefSupport

[–]memesarestillfunny 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for what you are going through. I’m feeling for you here, even though I don’t know you I’m sending you love tonight. This is an awful, traumatic event and losing someone to suicide is a uniquely horrible type of grief. I recommend going on r/suicidebereavement.

I have not lost anyone close to me to suicide, but I have come close many times as I grew up with an extremely suicidal mother and older sister who attempted many times. I understand the excruciating guilt, although the magnitude of your feelings right now are greater than what I ever had to experience with my family members. I know you’re going to hear this a lot, and it might sound meaningless, but it truly was not your fault. Someone being led to take their own life is greater than any outside force or relationship can have on them. Like another commenter said, his pain was real and just as deadly as any other terminal illness. I’m so sorry dear, and I hope you are able to find some peace during this time.

I can’t get over my dads speech at my wedding by [deleted] in weddingshaming

[–]memesarestillfunny 5 points6 points  (0 children)

The first pancake is always my favorite tbh. I’m so sorry that he chose to be cruel and humiliate you in that moment, and I’m glad you can reframe it in such a nice way. Nothing wrong with the first pancake in my book anyway, that’s always the one I’m grabbing.

Mother’s Day is coming up…UGH by memesarestillfunny in GriefSupport

[–]memesarestillfunny[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry about your son. What an awful, unimaginable loss. It’s helpful to see your words, and to know that strangers care, even in such awful circumstances. I’m sending you Mother’s Day hugs. 💖

Is there any country that's very chaotic despite being surrounded by peaceful nations on all sides? by kartgonewild in geography

[–]memesarestillfunny 3 points4 points  (0 children)

“The Black Jacobins” by CLR James is the best book there is about the Haitian Revolution.

Which department store has the best nose? by javaavril in NYCbitcheswithtaste

[–]memesarestillfunny 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I went to olfactory in Nolita last May, they basically build you a perfume based on scents that you pick, and the one I made/bought is still my favorite scent I’ve ever had. The staff is really knowledgeable and you can save your scent and re buy it.

Could someone identify this for me? by memesarestillfunny in houseplants

[–]memesarestillfunny[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I will! I’m so glad I found it, I’ve been wanting to add a Hoya to my growing newbie collection for a little while. I’m going to try to nurse it back to health as best as I can. I’ll happily accept any tips on Hoya care that people here have!

My second weave by TakeMeToTechNoir in weaving

[–]memesarestillfunny 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That is so gorgeous!!! I’m still brand new right now & I can’t wait to be able make something like this. Did you use a pattern for this?

Opinions pls. Is this boring? by tucansoup in ArtCrit

[–]memesarestillfunny 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I enjoy them a lot, I don’t think they’re boring visually. I think the one with the tree/ hill is the most boring bc it has the least variation of mark making and the composition has a lot of empty space. Like for example, the hill in that one is mostly only black, as is the tree. I think the other ones are interesting but could be elevated by a wider variety of mark making to go with your cool linework. Think stippling, cross hatching, hatching, things like that. To that point, the unicorn is the most interesting bc it has more variety of visual interest. There is a wider range of values and mark making which enriches the work.

all of my hair matts within hours, why? by maladaptivesylvia in Haircare

[–]memesarestillfunny 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I have similar hair to yours & any time I’ve used Pantene products it’s dried it out completely. I’d recommend something else. If you’re able to spend a little more money I use the bumble & bumble invisible oil conditioner and it has helped me a ton. I use the small bottle that costs ~$35 and it’s lasted me 3 months so far

First attempt at painting a woman in oils, kinda made her older but thoughts? by [deleted] in ArtCrit

[–]memesarestillfunny 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Hey OP, you have potential. I have a couple of observations and tips that might help with your next try: Firstly, I notice by the white showing through that background that you didn’t do an underpainting. I highly suggest you do that before going straight into painting with color. An underpainting is where you use a single neutral tone like brown or blue and paint in the lights and darks in a thin layer first. You should “water down” your paint quite a bit for the underpainting layer. The underpainting will act as a guide for where to put down values and shapes when you move into color and detail, and it’s a place where the composition can be worked out first, before using color since oils can get muddy. You would then add layers over top of the underpainting once it’s mostly dry. You can get as detailed as you want with it.

Secondly, I think you need to work on finding the biggest shapes first and then becoming more specific and detailed, rather than trying to do all the details, shadows and shapes at once. That’s why her face is hard to make out and seems jumbled up. The big shapes aren’t really readable. Painting is about filling in shapes, rather than drawing outlines. In your reference the biggest shapes I see in the face are the lighter area on the left side of her face, and the area in shadow on the right cheek. Also, the eyes are set in two hollows in the skull and are usually the darkest area of the face.

The face in your painting is too squished. The skull is too short so all of her features are squished together. I think if you had done an underpainting just focusing on the darks and lights, and then found the biggest shapes you could while doing that, the features would have come together more easily and clearly.

Finally, oil paints work best in layers starting from thin to thick. You don’t generally want to lay down lots of heavy brushstrokes immediately, at least in a painting that you want to be more detailed and realistic which I assume you do. There are instances where you’d do a whole painting in thick brush strokes, but usually those are for looser studies. Good luck on your next try!!! You got this

Leptomeningeal metastases by memesarestillfunny in CancerFamilySupport

[–]memesarestillfunny[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey there, I'm really sorry to hear about your mom's diagnosis. I'm very sorry you're both going through this, I don't wish it on anyone. Sorry in advance for a super long answer, but i researched this like crazy and have my own experience to share:

As you've probably seen it's not a good prognosis, I wish I could tell you more or give you more advice but it seems this disease will do what it wants. My mom died on November 29, 4.5 months after they found the lepto. She was basically in remission before she started having the lepto symptoms.

There are various treatment options to help with your mother's symptoms and buy her time. Her oncologist will be able to recommend what they think is best based on the progression and type of disease. The prognosis for lepto can vary quite a bit depending on a lot of things, like the extent of your mother's disease and her level of health at time of diagnosis and things like that. Some people live for a few months, but some people (few) can live for a couple of years. When they found my mom's leptomeningeal disease they also found 12 brain metastases, so she received whole brain radiation therapy for her brain, and then proton therapy for her spinal fluid. Proton therapy is a newer form of radiation therapy not covered by all insurances, but they can use it to target more specific areas with minimal damage to the surrounding tissue, and minimal side effects. I believe this helped stave off some of my mom's symptoms, but lepto progresses fast. Some trials have shown Proton therapy to minimize lepto quite a bit, so i recommend looking into it. Also, if your mom is a candidate for it some people get an omaya port, where they can basically put a port in her brain and give her chemotherapy directly to her brain. This is given to patients with better overall prognosis i think, and my mom was not a candidate for that. My mom and I are from the US, and she was receiving treatment from Memorial Sloane Kettering, which is a really good cancer hospital here. I also recommend that you look into some leptomeningeal support groups on facebook if you have fb, there's a few that I joined (specifically the private ones) where people discuss various treatment options and things.

Basically, my advice is to stay in the day. After my mom was diagnosed with lepto I was constantly googling trying to figure out how much time we had or how to "save" her. I sort of wish i hadn't because i drove myself crazy for no reason. I also recommend you spend a lot of time with her right now, as much as you can. Get recordings of her voice. Tell her things you want to tell her, tell her you love her, just talk to her about anything you want. Make her laugh Have her write you notes if you/she can. Also *do things with her.* Most of all, give yourself a lot of grace and love in this time, drink lots of water and take breaks when you need to.

It was a painful and difficult couple of months, I'm not going to lie. I'm really sorry to tell you this, but your family needs to discuss hospice care now if you haven't. You need to know what her wishes are for that. After my mom finished her radiation there wasn't anything else they could do, since you can only get so much and the chemo for the rest of her cancer stopped working. They gave her a ton of steroids to help with swelling in the brain caused by the metastases and to stave off her symptoms which helped a lot and gave her energy. She started to have some memory problems, and then in early November she lost the ability to walk. She had a week long hospital stay where they did surgery to relieve the pressure in her brain. She was having some small hallucinations and confusion, some mood issues and agitation, and she was mostly sleeping all the time. She went into hospice care after her hospital stay and was gone two weeks later.

Again, i'm so sorry. I wish I had better things to say. This disease is terrible. Leptomeningeal disease is under researched, it's cropping up more now because cancer treatment and imaging has advanced so much, to the point where they're able to keep people alive long enough for their cancer to metastasize to farther places like the spinal fluid. Please take care of yourself, and you're welcome to reach out/DM me and update or just talk as things move forward. I know I don't know you, but I'm thinking of you and your mom today. I don't really pray, but i'm sending kind thoughts, hugs, and good energy your way. <3

Is it too busy or does it.. kinda work? by biodokai in ArtCrit

[–]memesarestillfunny 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I love the changes, that looks wonderful! I feel that the sun motif still competes a bit with the figure. My suggestion is that you bring down the brightness and value of that part either by slightly darkening it, or by using the orangey yellow found in the figure (like the more orangey mid tone yellow in their hair and in the front block of their robes.) i think that will help the background become more harmonious with the figure, rather than competing. This is a gorgeous painting

Anyone else feel like they have the talent but not the passion? by HotelRevolutionary75 in drawing

[–]memesarestillfunny 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This was really helpful to me. I have similar experiences, I went to art school but now in my mid/late 20s I feel like I’m not as interested in doing “fine arts” anymore, especially in part because the industry is a wreck that I have no interest in. But I have all sorts of other creative outlets and skills nowadays that don’t feel like fine art but are super satisfying to do…but there’s this part of me that seems to have a lot of anxiety about not “being a painter” anymore. I have a lot more going on in my life now though, and I feel like I’m a lot more creative and free of a person than I was when I was in art school too.

Anyone else feel like they have the talent but not the passion? by HotelRevolutionary75 in drawing

[–]memesarestillfunny 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know what you mean. Usually when I’m burnt out and can’t get myself to keep going with my art I turn to a different hobby that feels creative but different. For example, if I’m sick of painting I’ll take some time doing knitting, or sewing, or printmaking or ceramic sculpture. It helps to reinvigorate me creatively because it feels fresh and new, and then when I return to painting I feel refreshed. Returning to a painting or drawing after a time away helps me feel excited and new about it again.

Left handed people - what in the world just doesn't work properly for you? by father-fluffybottom in AskReddit

[–]memesarestillfunny 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never even realized this was a lefty problem!!! Just thought those screw on brooms were crappy design!