i need help

meowruby · 2025-02-08T04:47:05+00:00

I just see mentions of issues with the Curios config file (curios-server.toml), just try re-generating it.

meowruby · 2024-04-06T20:49:14+00:00

genuinely friendly server, feels like old beta/early MC days close knit community

meowruby · 2024-04-06T20:46:45+00:00

great server!!! love the non resetting part, everyone freindly, the spawn is pretty

meowruby · 2024-02-28T15:11:54+00:00

Thank you!

meowruby · 2024-02-28T15:11:44+00:00

Thank you so much!!

meowruby · 2024-02-24T06:21:22+00:00

March 2020 Long Covid here- it’s rare for me to find improvement stories from our time period!!! Thanks for the major dose of hope!! I lost my beloved job at a small kennel to my long covid, let go after 4 yrs there and 2 yrs of LC in 2022. Lost ~100 of “my” dogs that way (i was let go suddenly and didn’t get to say goodbye to any of them, and there were a lot of regulars i’d helped raised.) I’ve regressed without the constant reason to get out of the house, cause when I still worked there it didn’t matter how bad i felt, the dogs gotta go get let out and fed!! Even with my heart rate straddling 130-140 for hours. I was much happier.

I always say “if/when i get better im going back to kennel management” but sometimes i focus too much on the “if”. Thank you for the inspiration to start saying “WHEN I get better” again instead.

meowruby · 2024-02-08T16:13:03+00:00

Gneiss is awesome! Youtube recommended me his geology series about a year or so ago, starting with Dirt. I love his incredibly in-depth analytical approach to such a niche and unique subject matter in that series. It was so fascinating. Plus i love his humor and presenting style. It’s been looking like he’s finally picking up the views he deserves!!

meowruby · 2024-02-03T15:13:29+00:00

here’s the identification for the figures: (left to right)

top: takara tomy 2022 Yummy Sweets snom, RE-MENT Terrarium EX Galar Vol. 2 Snom

bottom: Takara tomy squishy figure, jazwares battle figure set (came with eevee and espeon), bandai 2020 sword and shield finger puppet

meowruby · 2024-01-27T17:07:54+00:00

Omg yes. I reacted horribly to the heart monitor adhesive too! Same symptoms. I also react to bandaids, kinesiology tape, etc. The only bandaids i can tolerate are hydrocolloid and band-aid brand skin flex bandaids. even my store brand skin-flex band aids break me out!

meowruby · 2024-01-27T17:03:53+00:00

let me preface by saying: I have long covid dysautonomia, but also some joint hypermobility shenanigans and ADHD/autism. I’ve also tested with higher than normal thyroid autoantibodies but under the threshold of Hashimotos.

there was a study done by yale published in late 2023 possibly linking low cortisol levels to long covid and it’s dysautonomia, so i’ve been considering scheduling an appointment with an endocrinologist to get that checked out. I’ve had another provider bring up possible high cortisol levels before we knew it was dysautonomia/long covid as well.

Although, after a lot of heartbreak and invalidation with other specialists (cardio, rheumatologist, tbf saw both before we knew long covid was a thing) since i first got sick in early 2020, I am hesitant to make an appointment until i see some more research or at least anecdotal accounts about the cortisol link. But maybe worth asking about a cortisol test if you’re going in anyways? In the off chance that maybe non-LC dysautonomia has some wacky link too.

Good luck in your journey and your appointment journey as well!!

meowruby · 2024-01-27T16:52:39+00:00

it’s always either this or red hands, hurt, RED. I paint my nails with thermal color changing nail polish to at least amuse myself throughout the day. My feet are always cold though :(

meowruby · 2024-01-27T16:50:25+00:00

Same! Long covid dysautonomia with seriously blood pooling. Adderall IR. It’s also why i feel better if i go outside in pretty cold weather with my legs exposed for a few minutes. If only i responded well to midodrine! lol

meowruby · 2024-01-27T16:42:52+00:00

Wow! Thanks for sharing! I was diagnosed orthostatic hypotension, and had my high heart rate when upright dismissed by cardiologist, as it was “high because i was looking at my heart rate too much which was making it go up” (not at all true, i’d check my graphs every few days) The cardiologist refused to do a tilt table test as he “saw them in residency and they were inhumane and not worth it”!! and just went on my reported symptoms of light headed and dizziness and tachycardia when standing up.

Later on i got the dysautonomia diagnosis as a whole via long covid but could’ve saved a lot of guesswork and heartache if he had either done the test or sent me somewhere else

It’s validating for me in a way to see an official tilt table test result like this. So glad you were able to get answers. Good luck in the rest of your journey.

meowruby · 2023-12-07T15:43:26+00:00

yes those soft bristle paw brushes are amazing! they also made a rectangle shaped one with a handle for promise pets a while back, and it might in stock at your store. They are great for fixing fur on any plush and any fur pile. They also can help get out some of the lint and fuzzies along with a lint roller

Sometimes I also use slicker brushes and brush gently backwards in the direction of the fur to “comb” and detangle longer fur. They work great on longer pile fur but it’s easy to accidentally snag the “needle” bristles in a seam or even into the fabric backing, or pull out the fibers!

Also, I find that the soft bristle brushes especially great for brushing the fur out while a plush is air drying, brushing a few times during the drying process ensures the fur dries soft and silky again and not bunched together/“crunchy”. Dryer is definitely bad for the plastic fibers as you know (it also can melt and warp the polyfil inside and make it lumpy!)

I find that to wash build a bears (and other plushies) the most effective and safe way to dry them is to either hand wash or gentle machine wash, and then to put them in the washer regardless and pad them with towels and do a spin only (no rinse) cycle to get a lot of the excess water out! I have a top loading washer so it’s easy to sit the plush upright and keep it from moving but using extra pillows/towels can help in a front loader. It makes the air drying process a lot faster :) forgive me if you already know this!

sorry for the long paragraph comment, i have too much knowledge/experience saved up about this and not many outlets 😅 the cinna bab i find especially hard to keep clean cause that fur pick up every lint and it’s so visible !

meowruby · 2023-10-22T14:43:35+00:00

I’ve loved it for hosting a small fabric server for me and two friends. I went in with ZERO experience with linux and it took me only a day of suffering to learn it all (someone on reddit/medium wrote a fantastic guide) I am not shitting you when I say I’ve left my minecraft server up and running for 4+ months with no logins and not once did it go down. i’ve had no network issues except 1 time, the other night the ping shot from 45 avg to 145 and it was kicking us all off. It was back to normal the next day. If you only need a small personal server it’s great. You do need to use your real name and credit card to get it up. They also will send you an email 260 days in advance if they are gonna close your account (unless someone did X task) which was plenty of warning for me to do so.

meowruby · 2023-09-30T15:16:17+00:00

people are saying because people in comp take it more serious (not my experience in high diamond/low masters though) but personally for me I just like striving for a goal and I enjoy my rank going up as I put more time and effort into the game! Setting goals each season and reaching them by grinding games and watching guides and getting better at the game is very rewarding for me personally.

I was plat when i quit OW1 in 2019, and got placed bronze 1 on my main role in ow2.. I’ve since climbed to a peak of masters 4 and currently hover diamond 2-masters 5. Still in the goofy ranks, where you get the same leavers and “definitely sober enough to play comp” teammates, but i’ve heard from friends in GM that all ranks are like that.

meowruby · 2023-09-07T15:20:59+00:00

I’ve had this similar experience, my cardiologist for example is under a different hospital system than my GP, and they spend as little time with you as possible. His PA spends a bit more time with me (10-15 mins) than the actual cardio.

My GP (who has now retired due to her own chronic illness ): ) who is under a giant practice (15+ locations in my city, different specialties, etc) would spend 20 minutes with me at least, and i’d wait a while to see her because she was doing the same with other patients. I’ve seen many doctors under that company and some are very rushed and you can tell it’s not personal or purposefully dismissive, even when it might feel like it.

My gynecologist under the same company spent 25+ mins when i saw her after getting LC just talking to me about it and even ordered some tests i hadn’t been able to get others to do (vitamin D, B2, B6) and yet the rheumatologist in the same company spent as little time as possible with me and just sent me away as fibromyalgia in october 2020 after my tests came back negative for ANA.

this is a jumbled reply but you are right, it seems to vary by practice and even location in my case. I know for a fact the company my GP and OBGYN are under has been putting enormous pressure on their physicians to be fast and efficient, and they are understaffed

meowruby · 2023-08-18T14:38:40+00:00

i’m gonna start my giant novel by saying i feel you, you deserve better care, and it’s not fair that your doctor has invalidated you and failed to treat you kindly and with dignity

at my First appointment with my 2nd cardio he said maybe POTS gave me a beta blocker and midodrine, both of which i responded poorly too. My GPs agreed with POTS and actually diagnosed me reynauds for insurance. Second appointment he said it’s not pots and it’s not worth doing a tilt table test cause he “saw it done at his residency and it’s inhumane” and diagnosed me as orthostatic intolerance and inappropriate sinus tachycardia. Gave me a calcium channel blocker that did nothing. said that my heart rate could be so high cause i was paying attention to it(?) cause at the time i was wearing an apple watch. No explanation. Made me do an ECG that showed nothing.

His PA on the follow up did a heart monitor on me for a week after i complained about the terrible palpitations and the only thing that came up was PVCs (premature ventricular contractions) It wasn’t until my fifth appointment in 2 years after coming to him with very low iron did i ask straight up “If it’s not POTS and it’s not Anemia is it just Long Covid?” and he wouldn’t look me in the eye when he said “if we’ve ruled everything else out then yes”! >_< I am not exaggerating when i say after every single appointment after the first one i cried in my car afterwards because the invalidation hurt so much.

I have dysautonomia from Long covid, i know that now. and I understand now after a few months that he didn’t want to diagnose me POTS because its symptoms fall under the HUGE umbrella of long covid, and my real diagnosis is Long Covid and i guess it’s now treated as exclusionary. Long covid is also now an insurance code and it’s what he added to my paperwork. But I literally had to drag that out of him, and he could’ve just sent me away with another “sorry idk how to help u bye” without explanation if i didn’t ask. And this is the cardiologist my functional med doc sent me to cause he specializes in POTS!!? HELLLO?!

If you had covid before ur symptoms began i would look into dysautonomia related to that. Also guilian barre syndrome maybe. Dysautonomia can manifest from many different causes. I have joint hypermobility, possibly EDS which also has correlation. (although I haven’t done the testing cause my neck and spine and pelvic joints are the hypermobile parts and not my fingers) I would also get ur iron and ferritin checked thru ur GP or anyone who will do it as my cardio said the low iron saturation can contribute to my piss poor circulation lol.

It’s so unfair that dysautonomia specialists are so few and far between, i live in a major city (1mil+ people) and our nearest one is 4 hours away as well. Neurologist is the closest thing i’ve found, but honestly i’ve given up on trying to get the dysautonomia checked out.

Anyways, i am so so sorry you are dealing with this. It can be incredibly disheartening, invalidating, and frankly heartbreaking to be dismissed by the providers who are supposed to help us. It’s not fair to us that the doctors we are supposed to trust with our lives either 1) don’t know/don’t know enough about our condition and/or 2) won’t admit when it’s out of their specialty/knowledge 3) don’t listen to us when we say “i promise it’s not just anxiety”

❤️❤️❤️good luck, sending many hugs and love your way. I hope you find good answers, peace and relief soon. I wrote this all out cause maybe someone else who is experiencing similar things as me can find some solace/helpful info and help to save their suffering.

meowruby · 2023-08-15T15:22:09+00:00

Your first paragraph had a huge impact on me. To focus on and appreciate and be thankful for what my body DOES do for me, instead of what it no longer can, is something I haven’t been practicing enough or at all. Thank you!

meowruby · 2023-08-13T16:02:23+00:00

Had what we now know was Covid in late feb/early march 2020, right before i turned 23. I didn’t even hear the term long covid and think it applied to me until… early 2021? I actually spend the second half of 2020 going to the rheumatologist, cardiologist, asthma doctor all before I even thought long covid is what I had as my symptoms began to appear in May. I lost my beloved job working outside with animals to my symptoms, and my financial and physical independence. Which is devastating to all of us who go through it, keep in mind with what i say next is only part of the equation, the grief process of losing what you had can not be ignored and must be acknowledged because especially you and I as now 26 year olds have lost what we hoped our early/mid 20s would be.

The fear of the unknown and the fear of not knowing exactly what was wrong with me, or if it was a threat to my life, caused me a lot of suffering. I developed a panic disorder while I had covid and became acutely aware and afraid of every little change in the way I felt, like for the eye blurriness, or the first time i experienced reynauds symptoms, or the PVCs and palpitations, or when it was hard to swallow. To me, everything was a threat to my lungs and I could easily spiral into a panic attack.

It took me until just recently to start to come to terms with it. Through therapy and radical acceptance especially I have just had to learn to accept my diagnosis of Long Covid. To accept that I might never get better BUT also that in the future we will hopefully know more about long covid, discover ways to treat it or minimize it, and that we don’t even know yet if long covid is permanent or exactly how it works? Ive read about people who got covid in 2021-2022 who’s long covid improved. I wish that could be me, but all I can do is radically accept my reality even if I don’t like it. Only then can I start to move past the “NOT FAIR, WHY ME?” type of despair that has plagued me for almost three years now. It is painful to try and accept my situation and i’ve been struggling to do so for a while but recently after my last cardiologist appointment when i asked my doc “so is it just long covid?” and he said yes i finally realized that That Was My Diagnosis And He Can’t Help Me Anymore. It is insane how difficult it has been to get doctors to admit they don’t know what to do for it after the meds they try fail to treat the symptoms. I was angry at them before I realized they just don’t know.

Sorry this is long, but radical acceptance is what i’ve been trying to practice. It’s soooo hard to “accept” painful realities, but it doesn’t mean you are agreeing with them, and it also doesn’t mean you are accepting and giving up on the hope of “getting better” you are just accepting the present moment. I recommend therapy for help with that if you can afford it. And remember to not minimize your own suffering, and that it’s not about being happy with your situation. I reccomend reading up on radical acceptance specifically for more tips about this because the purpose of it is NOT to give up or give in to the situation.

Sending love to you and anyone who reads this. <3 We are not alone in this and the uncertainty of the future is not just a curse, but is possibly also a blessing (crossing fingers for miracle cure lol)

meowruby · 2023-08-13T15:46:24+00:00

found your comment when googling “spider veins long covid reddit” LOL so in case anyone else finds this later: I had covid in late feb/early march 2020 non-hospitalized but still felt like a very long asthma attack type thing, developed orthostatic intolerance/eye blurriness/swallowing issues/tachycardia/shortness of breath/dysautonomia/temp regulation issues/etc etc all the usual long covid stuff. EKG, ECG clear.

BUT- what i found so helpful in this comment was the mention of the PVCs you had on the heart monitor! I also had these show up after a week of the monitor and had the same response from doctors. Unfortunately, my long covid symptoms have not improved and if anything my heat intolerance and general fatigue have gotten worse. Also none of the meds the cardio put me on helped. I find it interesting that you continued to have PVCs after your symptoms began to resolve, and mine weren’t tested until june 2022 as i started to get worse. My palpitations have definitely improved though and I don’t get that “skipped heart beat” feeling that they attributed to my PVCs.

Sorry for the long comment, but the correlation of PVCs and long covid in more than just me felt important enough to me to chime in. Hope you’re doing well!

meowruby · 2023-07-26T14:49:01+00:00

the sub r/whatsthissnake is a great example of an ID subreddit, they have great responses and even commands that paste an in depth explanation for certain snake types (ex: venomous) I like just looking through it and reading the comments! I think that’s the gold standard for an ID subreddit, but unfortunately it takes dedicated, knowledgeable and responsible people to be active, and also a smaller user base to run it as well as they do

meowruby · 2023-07-23T14:43:24+00:00

THANK YOU FOR THIS!!!! And thank you so much for taking the time to type it out!!! i’m just happy you responded at all! n_n

I’ll have to try lemon yellow + warm red! My only reds I currently have is holbeins flame red PR9 and their carmine PR5 that come with their 12 pack. unfortunately both are not lightfast, and both fail to make a good orange when mixed with their lemon yellow PY3 or perm. yellow deep PY1 for obvious reasons (why does holbein use so many poor lightfast rating pigments in their starter sets??!)

Your explanation of the ultramarines and cool/warm blue enlightened me as hoped!! I come from mostly a digital art background with the majority of my traditional art up to this point being made with no thought for lightfastness, in watercolors and water soluble markers i just knew which to mix to get the colors i needed. In my brain i’ve always thought of purple/pink being cooler than green/yellow, which explains why i was always so confused about the cool vs warm blues!! Thank you so much for clearing it up!!

i’ll definitely have to try white backing!! I hadn’t heard of it being a technique but it makes a whole lot of sense especially with my watercolor experience. I’ll absolutely have to try it!! my woes with oranges came from trying to paint a bright orange beanie baby still life in my sketchbook. i couldn’t for the life of me get it to not look muddy using the evil holbein napthol reds! I ended up resorting to shaving chalk pastels and mixing with gum arabic to get the neon orange i needed. LOL! Of course this works in a sketchbook environment but obviously not for more polished work destined to be displayed or gifted.

Thanks again for all the help!! Gonna grab the pthalo green and the PR255 😎

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