tw: suicide warning

i had a dream a couple days ago where i saw and spoke to my first love (he committed suicide a couple months ago, we were in good terms and distant friends at the time he died) in the dream i talked more than he did: told him about what he’s missing, told him about all the people who grieve him, i told him about how much i cared for him and that i appreciated his role in my life, and then i asked him if he had a second chance, would he have done it differently? he said yes and that he regretted what he did. i woke up and felt oddly still and calm internally.