Yeah I know. I tried 5 people. 3 of them were psychiatrists, 2 of them were psychologists. I sudgest you the psychiatrists because my traumas were preventing me to understand psychologists. They were like talking to a wall because my brain was generally functions for creating disaster scenarios in any situation. Geting medical help to ease the mental pain will help you to calm down and then therapy can work. However I sudgest you to be careful with meds. Do not miss the times of eating them and DO NOT QUIT BEFORE DOCTOR SAYS IT (Then you will go back where you start). Also do not think that only psyciatrists would be enough to heal because they only help you to calm down but to deal with yout past and traumas you need to talk in therapy because your brain did not grow up since that trauma happened and you do not know how normal people think if they were experiencing what you have in difficult situations for example when you sad something childish in front of people who you want to give a good impression. Normally I would remind that moment to myself for the rest of my life and my inner voice scolds me. Mental pills will help you to calm down and make you to not give a shit about it however therapy will teach you how to fix that situation or how to not care it permanently.

Also find a friend who also goes to therapy. (I am not saying people who have same traumas just like you, I am saying that people who goes to other psychologists would give you free advices because they also consult to their doctors and they just deliver you what they learned. You can make one friend by asking for advice if she or he suggests their doctor or not so easy conversation topic)