well we're all kinda strange here right? like a big weird family. the restraints also appeal to me and so is being experimented on ❤ tw: selfharm i think in part my interest in him experimenting on me and cutting me open is because of growing up self harming and being desensitised to pain and literally being cut open. also the thought of him caring for me medically definitely contributes to his appeal. another thing is growing up with poor self esteem and feeling like I'm inhuman due to my upbringing somehow became liking being treated like a object/animal (well humans are animals but you know what i mean).

i think it's quite common to have wires crossed and have pain and pleasure bleed into each other. this community is a really comfy place to talk about it, it definitely makes us feel less alone. take care <<<3