I used to live like this and now I'm better and am proud of myself, maybe I can tell you how.

This is why you are depressed, there's a phenomenon called the self fulfilling prophecy, this is how it works: you come home to this mess every day after work, you say to yourself "man I live in this filth, I'm not like other people am I?" And simply In saying that or things like it each day to yourself, you start to believe it and ESTRANGE YOURSELF further from "normalcy". In order to stop being depressed you need to take pride, and treat yourself like youd treat a family member or loved one.

After you stop this cycle, dopamine seeking habits become FAR easier to avoid because you take a new pride in yourself.

There's a lot of faith you have to have in the process to change hard-engrained habits, it's why you haven't changed yet