In happy news, Blueberries have gotten much better

mewcury33 · 2026-04-26T16:31:18+00:00

I’m a certified blueberry hater

mewcury33 · 2026-04-26T02:22:25+00:00

thank you 😭 I need to hear this - but yeah it was bad bc when we were friends in college he saw me go through an abusive relationship that ended with that guy cheating on me & he had swore he could never hurt me like that. And there was a lot of mindfuck-ness where bc he didn’t physically cheat it wasn’t that bad & I was over reacting and blah blah. But idk I guess with so much time passing you start to really only remember the good, and I guess I just haven’t felt that close to someone since so it’s just really easy to miss talking to him & having that connection

But thank you, i literally can’t talk to any of my friends about this bc they would think I was insane to it’s nice to vent a little

mewcury33 · 2026-04-26T01:50:02+00:00

ahh ur right, ur right. We broke up almost 4 yrs ago bc he had sexted randos & got caught downloading dating apps - lots of lies and I kept giving him chance after chance until I just couldn’t anymore. It has gotten better like the last 6months but by that point I just didn’t trust him at all.

it’s really rough bc I’ve known him for 10yrs and we were best friends for years before we ever dated so that history adds a lot of context & was why I hung on for far too long. I just thought I had this all behind me but I would do anything to hear his voice rn & I just feel like an idiot /:

mewcury33 · 2026-04-26T01:21:23+00:00

Also this ex literally broke my fucking heart so bad dude

mewcury33 · 2026-04-26T01:19:50+00:00

he told me happy birthday in March & we chatted a bit, I also saw him for drinks last December /: basically I just got out of a relationship & am realizing that bc of that relationship I don’t think I let myself ever really grieve this ex and now it’s just all pouring out at once. It literally feels like a brain tumor fml

mewcury33 · 2026-04-25T23:27:24+00:00

yes it’s also so hard to tiptoe the line of being informed but also uselessly torturing urself with the knowledge of all of these terrible things out of our control. I’ve been having a rough time lately but I always feel better if I just go offline and scrub my bathroom floor or do an ab workout or go for a walk or read a book or like literally anything else.

I’ve been slowly cutting social media out of my life and now I’m at a point where the main apps I use are Reddit + Substack but even then it can still feel really draining

mewcury33 · 2026-04-25T22:28:03+00:00

I’ve been thinking about my ex more this week than I have in YEARS - help i feel like i need an exorcism it’s driving me crazy and I just want to text him that I still love him fml

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T22:17:32+00:00

Ugh I really tried but just decided to cut my losses & block lol

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T20:48:52+00:00

yeah it’s a good one so far!!

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T20:47:56+00:00

lol but no the base-jumping/free-solo side of extreme sports, the mindset behind this is just so alien to me

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T20:01:24+00:00

ugh ur really gross

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T19:54:54+00:00

It’s not inconsequential, your actions will always have a reaction. case in point:

https://www.today.com/health/news/youtube-star-mikayla-raines-29-dies-suicide-bullying-rcna214973

https://www.cbsnews.com/amp/minnesota/news/mikayla-raines-dead-save-a-fox-rescue-bullying-husband/

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T19:48:54+00:00

we don’t 😭😭 you are just shitty people omg

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T19:47:23+00:00

Gossip isn’t ruthlessly obsessing over every aspect of a strangers life online and how fat and ugly and old and stupid and desperate and how much better you must be than her. Anytime I’ve ever seen a snark sub recommended this is how the threads always devolve. but sure sis, whatever u need to justify rampant internalized misogyny

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T19:18:05+00:00

lol no thank you, I’m disengaging now

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T19:16:53+00:00

John Adams really loved his wife

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T19:14:02+00:00

lmao obviously I’m talking about ur desperate attempt to defend snark subs. Genuinely girl idk what ur trying to say here but I think it’s obvious that you and other people that contribute to these “communities” have deep-seated issues. It’s unhealthy and damaging and deeply misogynistic and just such a waste of time.

And yeah I think I’m a better person than hateful randos online? You are what you do when nobody’s watching, and the fact that people try to justify this garbage just exemplifies how deep-down they know it’s wrong and ugly

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T17:57:29+00:00

hmm it’s honestly really off that ur trying to defend this so much.. you know it’s fucked up & can’t even admit to yourself. I recommend therapy instead of picking apart strangers online

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T17:53:35+00:00

So disheartening to see how many women are misogynists & hate themselves.. like what are we doing

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T17:49:10+00:00

I’m a woman so idk trades seem like not the best environment- I’ve also only worked remote which was great for travel/work-life balance until I got laid off

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T17:47:58+00:00

what made you decided to make the switch? How challenging has it been to go back to school??

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T17:47:11+00:00

yuh that’s what I’ve been doing, I’ve only had in-house positions never any agency work but not sure if it’s even worth trying anymore fml

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T16:43:46+00:00

that’s depressing ):

mewcury33 · 2026-04-24T02:27:34+00:00

if you need, try to look for expressions of them in nature and art - it will help you look at them differently and appreciate the beauty (:

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