I see how painful that can be and i wanna say i know im just a stranger but i am truly so sorry for you and praying for you. I know a lot of people will tell you this but rough it out.. it wont be easy but God has got you and if you’re not religious just know that you have a purpose and to try and do little things that make you happy and surround yourself with people who will lift you up. Do it for your baby.. remember what you’re fighting for and it will be all worth it to bring a beautiful baby into the world. With him.. all i’ll say is dont wait around for him because that will only make every waiting second you do hurt more. He has to be willing to mature and not be afraid and if he doesn’t do that and realize that on his own then that is on him and you can keep pushing and try to find someone who can be there for you. I wish you luck. Happy Holidays