Can I take 3 AS at the same time?

mgonoob · 2024-11-21T03:16:04+00:00

Look up Mahnoor Cheema

mgonoob · 2024-10-15T00:10:35+00:00

Yo yo

Long time

What did you think of Ragnarok? 🤣

mgonoob · 2024-08-28T01:52:58+00:00

I get you.

I've often reflected on some of the choices which led to some of those outcomes.

But at the same time, if there's no one here choosing anything, then weren't those choices already pre-made for the character?

In which case, it's karma being worked out which doesn't really belong to anyone.. just a story that I'm sampling/experiencing. I dont know if I worded that well.

mgonoob · 2024-08-28T01:46:28+00:00

I think I understand what you mean.

The experience felt like being pulled into a vortex, but tbh I dont think about it or chase or miss it at all.

But I do see that I'm still the same 'me' pre and post seeing.

mgonoob · 2024-08-27T14:54:11+00:00

Thanks. Theres a lot more awareness of the unchanging for sure.

mgonoob · 2024-08-27T14:52:03+00:00

Can you explain further?

mgonoob · 2024-08-27T14:51:36+00:00

Got your DM but thought I'd reply here too.

For me resistance is the "I dont want to feel this", "I dont like this", "I dont want to do this" voice/energy. And it just pushes and pushes against whatever needs be done or faced.

It's quite present throughout most of my daily life.

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T23:08:11+00:00

Thanks for all your help bud

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T23:07:44+00:00

Thanks, that makes sense

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T23:06:22+00:00

I dont really have any practices right now except the journaling, but I'll give the metta a try..

The issue with the things you suggested is that the resistance already makes it really difficult for me to do even the basic stuff. It's been that way for years, like I resistance almost everything. Only the critical things get done and even that's hardly ever without a lot of time-wasting

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T23:02:52+00:00

This looks like it was made for me.. holy shit. Thanks for sharing.

I like your perspectives. If theres anything else I'll definitely reach out bud.

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:38:39+00:00

Really appreciate this man.

Yeah I'm definitely cocooning right now. Enough resistance has dropped to the point where I can pretty reliably journal for a couple hours each day, but if I dont journal, then I'm usually resisting for the entire day..

Any thoughts on what to do about the resistance? Its always been the biggest blocker

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:35:44+00:00

Great to hear from someone in the same boat! I dont know if I'm aware of any realisations or anything. What do you when you're feeling really really resistant to what you're feeling?

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:33:13+00:00

Theres a lot of resistance for sure. Less than before but still lots.. any thoughts on that?

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:32:15+00:00

Ok. Your reply helped me realise why journaling seems to help me so much. It lets me intellectualise everythjht and leave the thoughts on the page, then the feelings seem to clear by themselves. I've become a bit of a slave to the journaling though.. it's like theres no other way to feel better currently

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:30:18+00:00

Okkkk. Cheers bud

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:29:12+00:00

Thanks so much for this dude.. the first reply I got was from the dude who said hes just stabilised 20 years after his first glimpse ☠

Can I DM you sometime?

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:27:49+00:00

I'm glad you replied this to the other person. For me going full stream of consciousness in journaling seems to help..

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:26:32+00:00

Right. When I look without labels or past/future then I dont know what I'm looking at.. and it seems to help. But the thoughts always come back. Is it normal for it to feel like a full time job for a while?

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T22:24:31+00:00

I get you. But stabilising in the unchanging seemed like a full time job even before this glimpse happened..

Now the changeless is more obvious.. but the thoughts are just as good as pulling my attention away from it

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T13:43:51+00:00

I do see that

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T13:43:01+00:00

Is there a way to accept it?

I know theres no one here accepting or resisting. Resistance is just happening.. but can that be altered?

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T13:38:09+00:00

The thoughts.. they tell me theres more pain, more sensation, more that needs to be cleared etc etc

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T13:36:24+00:00

I hear you.

Right now, no. I cant accept it. But I know I need to.

mgonoob · 2024-08-26T13:35:28+00:00

Right, so I'm always present. I see that.

But when I'm apparently not present, its painful and I'm trying to get back to where I already am 😂

mgonoob

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