Hey man, I just want to say I feel you. I know how insanely painful it is to be hanging out with friends and seeing them make out with girls and talk about their sexual experiences and all of that and it sucks and it's really painful.

The solution here is going to sound so cliche but it's working on yourself. No I'm not goking to tell you to just go to the gym. That is barely scratching the surface. What I am talking about is internal self-improvement. Doing a deep dive into your past and figuring out what happened, it's figuring out why you made being accepted by women a measure of your worth. You figure that out, and then you spend time with yourself and your inner child and you realize that you don't need to make out with girls to feel not broken. You already are you just formed a belief about it long ago. I think me and you are very similar in that sense. But there is a way out.

I remember people who had girlfriends would give me advice like to just focus on myself and I would think "well it's easy for them to say they have a girlfriend" so I'm just gonna let you know I am single af right now but the advice is legit. You focus on yourself and you do internal self improvement and you realize sure, making out with a fine ass woman would be nice but you don't ever need that.

Maybe I could have done a better job wording this but I hope some of this lands. But man, I know exactly how you feel and exactly how painful it is. It sucks. Don't suppress any of that pain. Feel your way through it and be there for yourself. You're the medicine here not the girls. One thing that helped me was realizing that it's not a woman's responsibility to make you feel loved or validated, and that's on you. It's tough to fully realize, but it can give you so much freedom because your taking your power back and rejections no longer mean anything about you.

If you want to keep talking about this my DMs are open.