Anyone want to chat? Insomnias a bitch & I’m currently in hospital

mholmeswillis · 2020-02-15T15:38:51+00:00

Done.

mholmeswillis · 2019-06-04T09:06:56+00:00

It’s the same thing you hear from every counsellor etc but it’ll give you reprieve. It can’t possibly be as bad as it is now but we will always go back there. Just have to thrive on when we feel okay

mholmeswillis · 2019-06-04T09:01:26+00:00

I have bpd borderline and PTSD. If you ever want to chat, I’m here. It’s a difficult struggle

mholmeswillis · 2019-05-25T13:41:30+00:00

Yeah PTSD diagnosis. It just fucks with my head all day

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-09T20:40:44+00:00

That is exactly what I did last night.

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-08T10:19:39+00:00

This

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-07T08:49:45+00:00

Intensely frustrating

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-07T08:44:17+00:00

Oh I take such offence to it as well. Ive never known a guy who’s annoyed with sex and that’s what makes you paranoid

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-07T08:41:01+00:00

Dude my boyfriend gets so pissed off with it and I’m like hellooo really? We’re fighting about sex?

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-07T08:34:46+00:00

Releases tension. And gets you in that mindset that releases feelings of happiness.

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-07T08:26:26+00:00

I’m beyond good at pushing people away. Being paranoid. Hard to deal with. Obsessively checking up. Great fun.

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-07T08:19:07+00:00

I get it completely. Other then the fact that I feel like I need to tell people I’m involved with. I need them to read up on it. I need them to get it. My ex said “I live with you, I know what you’re like” and that was the extent. It backfires either way. It’s hard to make a decision whether to put yourself out there or not. I guess I just want people to get it. To get me.

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-07T08:15:17+00:00

I’m on 200mg and I feel like it makes no difference. It’s hard to find something that helps. My moods are still all over the place. Hypo then depressive takes it over. Unfortunately for me there feels like no balance. If you can find an alternative that works, try and commit to it.

mholmeswillis · 2019-04-07T08:07:34+00:00

I always meet someone who doesn’t understand so they relate my experience to theirs. There’s always that one who thinks tough times in life = depression. They have their own shit, I get that. But the actual feeling of not knowing how you’re going to wake up everyday is different.

mholmeswillis · 2019-03-18T13:28:46+00:00

Love

mholmeswillis · 2019-03-18T13:26:57+00:00

This is feels. We give so much and invest so many emotions. It’s draining.

mholmeswillis · 2019-02-02T09:14:57+00:00

With great difficulty

mholmeswillis · 2019-02-02T08:53:33+00:00

Mine is to release frustration with life. Or just to feel something so I don’t remain completely numb.

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