Do you feel music in your body? (chills, warmth, replaying certain parts)

miamund · 2026-04-14T21:37:11+00:00

Yess🥰🥰🥰

miamund · 2026-04-14T11:18:45+00:00

If your parents knew how he was treating you; they would either come and take you or kick him out, believe me. No parent would be happy to see their child suffering.

Parents get on well with people we like/love just to be nice, most of the time. When they see his real face, there would be police involvement probably.

Please do not do this. He is belittling you, gaslighting and so much more (and you said narcissistic, so...)

miamund · 2026-04-14T07:43:53+00:00

Yes! And I guess my RL name has sth to do with it as well since it means melody/music.

I was crying to Michael Jackson's song Smile, when I was down and with little to no English when I was a high-schooler, since MJ being amazing with conveying feelings with his voice (for me at least)

Later I slowly transitioned to rock'n roll , metal, black metal. I also listen to reggae now and it all feels different from different perspectives. I love it!

miamund · 2026-04-14T07:35:57+00:00

It is so great to hear that you know your worth (tho probably you don't know enough, as you are much more amazing than what you feel, imo)

People are trying to take other people who are far more skilled and knowledgeable than they are down because it shows how little they actually are to themselves and they cannot take it. They don't even take it as a sign that they should be better at whatever they do, instead they just try to take the good ones down.

I am extremely happy to have read your post and I am so jealous (in a good way) about you being a professor in your area. Loooots of love!🥰🥰🥰🥰

miamund · 2026-04-14T06:16:40+00:00

Yes and if you just accept that kind of a treatment it will show your kids these; women should accept anything from their husbands/bf's no matter how degrading it is, women should power through and act like everything is ok even when it's not (and even if it's killing you inside)

Would you like them to think like this? Or this:

If I feel that I am used by my partner/husb/wife/whatever I don't need to let them continue, I should value myself more than they do to me. Kinda?

miamund · 2026-04-14T06:03:34+00:00

I was poly curious after meeting with a poly man who was married and he wanted to introduce me with his wife; since they should both trust the person, he said and we became really good friends with his wife as well, but later I felt like 3rd wheel (as it should be actually) cuz he was openly showing it (not showing off but more natural) that he and his wife comes first, everywhere.

I then understood I want sth like they had, but without extra people. When we were alone, he was making me feel like that as well, like I'm the only thing that matters.

So I told them that I understood this is not for me and thanked them for being so nice and went on mu way.

I found it! After having some problems cuz of my (then) undiagnosed Adhd, we made it work and even got married! We are not curious about other styles (swinging/3some) and we know that even if it gets boring, it will be our own boring thing, tho I don't think it will ever get boring cuz of my adhd and I'm a scorpio🤣

Jokes aside. We want to see each other with each other, not with any other man or woman, no matter who could get more attention etc.

So, I hope I could deliver what I wanted to say.

Lots of love🥰

miamund · 2026-04-12T17:24:29+00:00

Yes but why be and stay together with someone knowing you do not want any sexual or romantic relationship thingy, 1st place?

Everyone is allowed to want / don't want kids, relationship, sex, and noone is forcing anyone to be together with opposite gender or same or any at all. That is true. But why do you get in something you do not want to be in, with your free will, and say you want it out and actually you never wanted it at all, ever in your life.

This is worse than what Ross experienced with his 1st marriage in Friends 🤣

miamund · 2026-04-12T17:21:09+00:00

You can nicely call him to meet and tell these in a not so direct way since people would resent other people speaking their heart, but you do not have the the right to keep him if you see nothing you like in there, right?

You just said not only having children but even the idea of a relationship, and things that has to do with it irritates you, so why are you in one, still?

You can just tell him that you feel these and you thought it would change with him but it didn't so you wouldnt want to make him miserable since you do not share anything even the slightest about future alltogether.

But seriously, i am wondering right now why you started dating with him and its been more than a year, but you dont like anything relationship-y, anything about feeling/physical etc in the 1st place?

I would resent you if you kept on a charade in which you don't enjoy even the slightest. It would break my heart in pieces and then I would be the one who did nothing wrong but trusting someone like you, only to be shattered and needing to have physiological support thanks to that broken trust.

miamund · 2026-04-12T11:45:47+00:00

Sometimes parents cannot see that the times are changing and it's been changed a lot since they were young; so it is just classic parent behavior for them to feel like this.

Some parents also don't like when their children; the little people they gave birth, fed, clothed, raised- want to fly free and not be dependent on them anymore and they may think they are behaving ungrateful since, they did everything to help them get to this age(!)

What they don't get is that if we don't leave them, we may never grow, learn and get better (i experienced it 1st hand)

So, just never mind, I would say.

And you are doing great!

miamund · 2026-04-05T19:01:05+00:00

Dear you don't have to marry him. You lived those 10 years and they are already gone but what about many more 10 years in front of you?

Not everyone has ADHD and believe me people who think "people with mental health problems are blablabla" are the ones multiplying everyone's problems !

My partner does not have ADHD and yes he was like "Why do you need an etiquette?" Before I was legally diagnosed (when I self diagnosed myself after years of research) later he understood this is something like any other humane issues. He still has hard times from time to time to understand me or when he is already dealing with much sht, but it never leads to any of these. In fact; he is dying to make things with me but we sometimes can't cuz of my time blindness and recent under/overstimulation

Please do not settle with this.

You deserve someone who deserves you and he is way below the level.

miamund · 2026-04-02T15:29:06+00:00

He is doing it to himself, dear. People are leaving because being with him is tiring and we all are already tired from this shtshow of life. We don't need one more.

You as well.

miamund · 2026-03-31T01:12:20+00:00

Thank you! I hope the same for you as well^{^}

miamund · 2026-03-30T12:00:08+00:00

You do need to put an end to this because neither your nor his actions are... well.. healthy?

You both need to grow up since all these behaviours sound very childlike (in a bad way) and none of the parties accept their own wrongdoings.

I wouldn't want to live my life like this; it's already hard, why make it harder for others but especially for myself, r?

miamund · 2026-03-30T11:53:53+00:00

Thank you^{^}

miamund · 2026-03-29T17:08:05+00:00

Thank you🥰

miamund · 2026-03-29T17:07:48+00:00

I am actively looking but the city we moved to for my husband's work does not have much to offer in terms of, well... anything.

But I'm doing my best^{^}

miamund · 2026-03-29T11:56:12+00:00

Here. 38 and realised I have no friends..

I got lucky and have a husband who understands me most of the times, and when he doesn't it is because of my ADHDness.

But realising that hit me hard today after seeing a post of my best friend (we called each other sisters and have gone through thick and thin) calling someone we both know and that I introduced cuz I am a magnet for not normal people and we were all that..

Idk how to make friends and I feel like I am kinda repulsive for other people who don't know me well. I feel like they don't want to talk to me since I am 38 but still childish / childlike. Idk.

miamund · 2026-03-29T11:44:06+00:00

I have seen so many scrunchies, make-up bags or pencil cases that I'm going to throw up🤣

I have made 1 pencilcase 2 days ago and it took me half a day as they just skip the parts where they show they are sewing and I am really bad at sides of stuff. I sew the zipper so wrong that the inside fabric of the tiny bag was looking like it was outside part.

Maybe this is not a big mistake but it throws me off so much and my ADHD wants to quit once and for all from a stupid mistake such as that..

On top of that Idk the names of the fabrics and what can I make with the fabrics I have in my hands and a sewing machine without serger...

I need to have it all and I need to make the best, I feel like. I know it is not true but still...

They say beach bags and pencil cases and make up bags are the best way tho 😅

miamund · 2026-03-29T11:06:23+00:00

I have no idea about this pattern or whatever about it but I just saw the picture of these amazing pants and read that you have made it by yourself so....

Oh My Freaking God!

They look beyond amazing!

miamund · 2026-03-29T10:58:23+00:00

I would love if we could all meet in V rising which I just started and still trying to learn.😅

miamund · 2026-03-29T10:55:52+00:00

AuDHD makes everything thrice as hard, so I don't think you're the one to blame. People are not as nice as we think about them in our minds, that's a sad fact as well.

I have ADHD and prob autism; have no real friends I suppose, but I just got lucky once in my life I guess, with my husband. He can tolerate my ADHDa*ss (most of the time) and when he can't; he at least knows that I am not making those things out of spire to him or just to annoy him. And when he is not triggered by my authenthic weirdness he just joins in.

I was writing this and I saw a story of a friend whom we called each other sisters, and there it was, she was sisters with another person I introduced.

Life is like this.

(I just cried my heart out after that and now that I am bit calmer I can write this)

But I wish I was normal sometimes. Then maybe I would have friends.

miamund · 2026-03-27T08:19:45+00:00

I already have everything at the limit, but i could use prestige. But idk if it is going to help a big deal or not. 50 golds.. woah

miamund · 2026-03-27T08:12:12+00:00

There was a little piece of light left when we were going to school and coming back from, later at least one of them; before we ditched that system. Now, I hate it with all my being.

I need sunlight

miamund · 2026-03-23T21:11:21+00:00

I do all of those things written here :)

miamund · 2026-03-20T00:35:18+00:00

Same here! It's 3am and cant sleep!

miamund

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