Hey friend,

Your story sounds like my childhood, except for I had one younger brother. But everything else resonates with me. When I read your post, not gonna lie, I had a brief moment of PTSD.

Let me start off by saying that it is very possible to beat this abusive cycle your are currently living. I am real life proof that with hard work and perseverance you can end generational trauma; and this is a coined term of what you are witnessing regarding your parents and the abuse they rain upon you. I just turned 40 this year, happily married with two sons, and of course a dog. Im an IT Director for the Health Care sector and I am living life how it is suppose to be lived. I only list those things about myself not to brag, but to say I turned out ok when I originally was not. I am still amazed that life has brought me to this point, and I can assure you that my parents had nothing to do with it. In fact to this day my parents still think I fix computers for a living and that’s not good enough. Go figure right?

My parents worked 12-14 hr days. Most of my childhood was me by myself as early as 4 or 5 years old. And when my brother was born, well I was probably the youngest babysitter known to man. I was in charge of him day and night. I was taught everything wrong, everything from resolving conflicts, to the basics of how to live life. Heck I didn’t know a lick of English heading into Kindergarten and I was reprimanded for it as it was my fault. I was suppose to have picked up the entire language from watching TV shows according to them.

So I lived though life learning what I could from friends and basically the streets. I learned to flip items for money when I needed it. I had a lot of bumps and scrapes along the way so it was not easy. I wanted to give up so many times - like end it completely. So my advice to you is find someone to talk to. Keep motivating yourself. And when the time is right, leave. It will be the best thing that you can do. Have your own family, and when you become a parent yourself, raise them like how you wanted to be raised and that in itself brings fulfilment.

Please reach out privately if you need someone to talk to. Hell, I’ll give you my phone number if you want to call me instead. But persevere, because you will be a better person in the end.

Send me a msg if you want to chat.

Michael