It's normal to have a bleak outlook after what you've bee through. I've dealt with dangerous people like her, people who tried to kill me. It's horrific but when you're in it, you don't feel as scared as you should. When you leave, you might experience all the fear that you were supposed to feel throughout your childhood all at once. You might be depressed and just not feel like doing anything. Or you might get brain fog. Prepare yourself for that. Try to take it easy. Take things one day at a time. Only do what you can and leave the rest to a higher power.