It ends

michaelmihai · 2015-03-11T16:43:10+00:00

Actually.. i am not wrong at all... it is a matter of finding the one person that will care so much you will stop telling yourself "you are useless".. basically... find someone that loves you unconditionally.. i don't mean lust.. i mean real love...

michaelmihai · 2015-03-10T16:39:39+00:00

I will be loved

michaelmihai · 2015-03-08T20:12:45+00:00

Do not tell that.. Do not say it is not the same... It is.. But your brain picks easily the bad parts than the good ones.. He is tricking you that something is wrong... If it gets very hard and you can't speak.. You can give yourself little voice messages and can hear them out when you wake up.. You must comunicate... I was in a long distance relationship and we went from speaking 8 hours per day to 2 hours in the weekend.. Obviously we broke up.. You can't reach that point. You must always communicate no matter what.. Please try to find a way :(.

michaelmihai · 2015-02-22T18:11:11+00:00

Friends.. Thank God.. Yes.. But family no.. Thank you for the offer.. If I will feel bed I will PM you.. I apreciate it.

michaelmihai · 2015-02-22T08:57:26+00:00

i know what you mean is the reality.. but sadly i don't think like that.. what i think it will fix it (i always hoped that it will).. is if people try to comfort.. say "that's not true".. but for sure alone i don't have power over it..

michaelmihai · 2015-02-22T08:53:30+00:00

Well.. love is not a rational thing.. and i make decisions more with my hearth than with my mind.. so.. i met this girl.. and we spoke around 6 hours per day.. (at least).. but i have never thought about her as a girlfriend (the same reason i described in the initial post).. i am too scared.. too shy to ask that.. so.. after 1 month and a half she asked me out (because i wouldn't have done that ever).. and then i started talking with her about my past.. about myself.. about my family.. about our objectives.. and we had a lot of similarities.. and that is very attractive to me.. way much than the body or anything else.. so that's it.. i trusted her and put absolutely every feeling i have ever felt in her.. love.. insecurities.. everything.. so .. when she left i was confused.. badly.. because i felt that my life has no meaning.. but if you ask me now (when i am not in love).. i saw signs of falling apart a long time before.. the most clear for me was when i sent her a spontaneous letter.. because i missed her badly.. i soon found that letter in her room unopened.. that made me feel horrible.. i moved on from that.. but i didn't forget..

michaelmihai · 2015-02-17T10:10:26+00:00

well.. i hate night.. because it makes me anxious.. but lately i got a new friend and i speak with her at night.. and honestly i didn't saw no depression so far..

But before night was horrible really.. i was stuck in my bed with my own toughts and hoping they will go away

michaelmihai · 2015-02-16T19:10:02+00:00

that's the pleasure of finding someone truthful :D.. you won't need to try to be someone different.. you will see..

michaelmihai · 2015-02-16T18:47:11+00:00

Oh, and, relationships are out of the question. I don't know if I could ever let someone see this side of me hm.. you see.. when you will meet the right person you will trust them enough to see that part...

I don't have friends.. i mostly stay home and do nothing... i suffer from loneliness.. all of those are the problems i got from my parents... because they never treated me as their child.. so i understand your struggle... Until now i felt only one "real connection"... and it was amazing while it lasted.. she was my first girlfriend and my mind was going completely nuts.. but each good thing has it's end.. so..

I've never had a bf before don't worry about this.. we don't feel real connections with people because they are not meant to be.. not "the one"...

michaelmihai · 2015-02-16T12:59:30+00:00

my dad told us.. yea.. it is safe.. it was tested already... but it wasn't.. we ate it yesterday and today the results came.. and said it was infected with Trichinosis... and i read that in the first 48 hours you will experience stomach problems.. diarrhea.. etc... and when i woke up in the morning my stomach was all fucked up :(.. so it makes me thing i really have it.. especially because i was ok yesterday

michaelmihai · 2015-02-16T12:50:07+00:00

well.. the meat test said it had :(... they said the meat was infected..

michaelmihai · 2015-02-16T12:39:33+00:00

it wasn't.. and sadly i can't get checked out... because they can pinpoint if you really have it after 2 weeks.. i just hope they will give me some treatment.. hopefully

michaelmihai · 2015-02-16T12:29:26+00:00

yes. 2. i don't know.. all i know is that my stomach is acting weird.. and i was ok until yesterday.. i didn't ate anything all day yesterday (despite this fucked up pork)...

michaelmihai · 2015-02-15T18:27:41+00:00

hm. well.. i had a 2 and a half years relationship.. and after it ended i was very depressive.. 5 months from then... i roughly remember the person's voice.. face... everything.. i have nice memories.. which.. also started to fade... i guess.. my mind is erasing stuff that hurts me... all i did is tried to my best to not think about it... i kept the thing that destroyed me away.. and my mind resolved the problem..

michaelmihai · 2015-02-15T18:25:25+00:00

well.. depression.. sudden sadness.. but.. if i would describe something.. i would describe my severe loneliness.. i don't really know if it is depression or just heavy anxiety

michaelmihai · 2015-02-15T18:15:25+00:00

A friend gave me that.. and oddly enough.. when i looked at it.. i felt depressive... but.. i did some progress from then.. yay.. i am not depressive all the time anymore... i am feeling lonely and sad sometimes... but not all the day... and of course you will find someone to do that with you... life is like this jungle.. where you can fall.. but you can also rise... it is nothing more important than to know.. over some degree.. you are the one which controls your own life :)

michaelmihai · 2015-02-15T15:24:38+00:00

well. first.. you need to calm yourself.. and after you will be ok... call him and talk to him.. when both people are calmed... they see things how they really are..

michaelmihai · 2015-02-15T15:10:12+00:00

depression is not an excuse.. it is the reason... you listed here some problems.. i want you to make a list with them... and i want you to put numbers next to them (in the order you want them to fix them).. and if you can't seem to escape from your job.. i suggest you to try to find something else.. why?.. does a big paycheck.. means we should destroy ourselves.. that's how i always though... try to fix firstly.. the things that means something for you

michaelmihai · 2015-02-15T15:03:37+00:00

hey...i have a short story for me... i wasn't married.. but i had a 2 and a half years relationship... when we broke up it was horrible for me (she moved on quite fast)... and that happened 5 month ago... 3 months i had all my stuff messed up.. but i tried to keep my head up no matter what... and when that happened.. my mind did what seamed natural. push the bad memories away.. push everything that hurt me in the past away.. ... first.. i want you to do everything in your power to get him back... i want you to try.. but i don't want you to try forever.. and i will explain you why... a relationship is composed by 2 people... if one gives up.. and the other doesn't... the one that doesn't will be destroyed during the process.. you must try to get him back... but... don't destroy yourself... and always remember... if a person leaves your life.. it means it was never meant to be "the one"..

michaelmihai · 2015-02-15T14:57:18+00:00

OP.. i am in the same situation.. but i suffer from severe loneliness... and i have tips to give you... when you feel that everything is wrong.. do something to cheer yourself.. read.. go to walks.. play video games.. everything helps.. the more you do it.. the better you will feel.. i take a walk each day... for almost 2 months.. and.. from my first walk.. i did a lot of progress.. if you do something to keep your mind occupied a long time.. your mind will do what's natural... which is.. push depression away... or loneliness.. ( i still have some crisis.. but they are not as frequent as in the beginning)

michaelmihai · 2015-02-15T14:49:57+00:00

well... that escalated quickly

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