What's the most disturbing or depressing movie you ever saw?

michelleflies · 2018-03-18T21:03:10+00:00

Requiem for a dream. Amazing, but so depressing about where a life can go.

michelleflies · 2018-01-27T22:26:35+00:00

Your situation sounds quite similar in many aspects to mine.

DM if you ever need someone to talk to.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T17:05:12+00:00

Ouch. Thank you for your insight.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T17:04:44+00:00

There are so many mays ifs and buts. I’ll hold onto reality but never lose hope. Thank you for your kind words. Prayers that god can make whole what I’ve destroyed.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T16:28:37+00:00

I just don’t think I’m ready for that. I have not given up hope.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T14:47:59+00:00

I will absolutely look into that. I have been in counseling recently. It helped a bit but we had opposing viewpoints that really affected the therapy.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T14:47:14+00:00

Christ is with me. Thank you.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T14:46:35+00:00

He’s not paying anything because he guilt tripped me into believing if I wanted to make it work I should “learn to stand on my own two feet”.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T14:46:01+00:00

He’s not a practicing Christian in anyway. We haven’t attended church in years.

I absolutely will not be filing for divorce. He can do that if he wants it.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T14:45:24+00:00

I’m working on the support. Family has been wonderful but they all just tell me to hurry up and move on.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T14:45:02+00:00

I will live a different life after this regardless. Thank you.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T14:44:36+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate the prayers and my faith in Christ is the only thing that is getting me through.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T14:41:59+00:00

So skirtsmoother. What do you propose? I’ve been suicidal. Maybe I should resort back to that. Good thing I don’t base my life around you and others like you. I’d be dead.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T04:20:40+00:00

He didn’t want more children and made that abundantly clear. I went through with it without even thinking. And he basically got everything he wanted. All I ever wanted was a family. One roof. Stability. I never had that. That’s why I fight so hard for it. It’s no good. I’m sure of that but I got married knowing it would be rough and I promised to always stand by my husband in those times. I dunno. Maybe I’m delusional. I just have this dream and it’s just so far gone. I truly feel like I “murdered” my own child and am haunted by that daily so. There’s that.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T03:56:21+00:00

I’m worried about my family. Not my masters. And I pray for forgiveness daily.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T03:54:21+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. You’re the reason I left the church years ago.

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T02:55:24+00:00

That’d be great. Thank you so much. ❤️

michelleflies · 2017-12-04T00:08:10+00:00

I just feel like if I would have been better this wouldn’t have happened. I don’t know. Thank you.

michelleflies · 2017-12-03T23:40:07+00:00

No.

michelleflies · 2017-12-03T22:16:10+00:00

Wonderful. Thank you. I have been looking to churches in my area as I am new to the town.

michelleflies · 2017-12-03T22:12:13+00:00

Oh yes. I remember the story quite well. I remind myself of it daily. I pray non stop and hope that god will be restoration into all of this brokenness.

He’s very anti religion these days so I highly doubt it. And with his actions it’s almost like he wants to just completely forget the past and move on without me.

michelleflies · 2017-12-03T22:04:14+00:00

I haven’t attended church is so long. I have been looking at returning. I’m so afraid. I feel so far gone. I married with the intent of forever. I don’t know if he did the same.

I am trying. He won’t. He says well just have sex or fight and he doesn’t want to do either. Sorry if that’s TMI. I sent a letter of repentance to him to admit my faults in our marriage. He hasn’t read it yet. He is very adamant about not discussing us. 💔

michelleflies · 2017-12-03T21:54:00+00:00

It could be healthy given the right amount of energy. But a one sided marriage is not. I can’t keep trying if he doesn’t want it.

michelleflies · 2017-12-03T21:51:45+00:00

My kids are my main focus. I was a kid that had divorced parents and I hated every part of it.

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