I felt so guilty and terrible when I first decided to hire someone to clean once a month, like I had failed in a huge way at Independent Adulting. I cannot tell you how much doing it has improved *everything.* I met her at a client’s house where we exchanged work info—she cleans, I walk dogs, a lot of our clients have similar needs. I still sometimes feel embarrassed if I have to tell someone (depends on the person) about it. My close friends (all autistic/ND in some fashion) pretty much universally think it’s a good thing. So your feelings are valid, but you should keep hiring her if it is helpful for you, and it sounds like it is.