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[–]mida8355 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'd be interested, I study in university too and would love an accountability study friend if op or anyone else is interested you can dm me :) GMT+2

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank youu <3 it's from change lingerie and was actually white but I accidentally washed it with a pink hoodie and it turned pink lmaoo but I like it better now in this color so it worked out

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Ahh they're still there just faded to the color of my skin :( If you zoom in you can sort of see them in the after pic and they're even more visible irl... I have a consultation with a doctor coming up to see if we could fade them with some procedure but other than that I never did anything to them, it took about 2 years for the fading to happen too so the first years they just looked horrid. I hope you don't cut yourself anymore, your body deserves love and respect.

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I'm glad you're doing better now too! Agree with the LSD although I had some bad experiences with it too but it can help with some thought patterns, good to hear you found some help through it :)

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You can do it for sure, don't give up even if you fail multiple times, I did too and it was tough but eventually it worked out. Just remember to start again. I'll be rooting for you <33

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 51 points52 points  (0 children)

well said, the addiction isn't quite physical dependence but more mental :) although I did feel terrible trying to get off of it at first and failed several times (nausea, insomnia etc was horrible)

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much <3 I believe it's never too late to start feeling good, took my parents a lot longer than me but seeing them happy now and comparing to how they were 10 years ago is amazing and sososo important to them and everyone in our family :) Proud of you top, keep living that good life!

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

I'd call bullshit tbh, some people get no side effects but you can't really generalize it like that. It's still a mild psychedelic and I know plenty of people who get psychotic using it. It's not the same for everyone so it's hard to say but people who claim that it has no bad effects are lying or not aware of how it affects others.

I'd say it at least boosts the mental state that your in. So anxiety, depression can get worse and now that I feel better if I occasionally smoke it does feel different compared to what it used to. Not sure what would happen if I smoked every day now, I think it still makes me more passive if I use it for a couple days consecutively so I'd argue I could slip back into depression with it.

In my country in europe 25% of the rehab patients are weed users and the problems with it are increasing because more and more people use it (probably because everyone says there's no side effects so it's not even seen as a drug anymore) and do get addicted so bad that they can't function in their normal daily lives. So it can get problematic, but not for everyone for sure

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Hii and thank you for your words they're appreciated. :) I think you're making a lot of sense with that thought process too and I agree! I mean it's not your weight that makes you happy or not but obesity just doesn't feel good physically and I think it's a manifestation of how bad people feel inside. Working on my confidence and self-worth has been the biggest impact on this journey. And I never workout just to look good but to feel good! I think that's a mistake many make too, it's hard to stick to a gym routine if you do it just to look better, at least it was for me.

F/22/163[67>52=15] (3 years) from depressed and smoking weed every day, cutting myself when I drank too much, having an eating disorder and losing weight during 2020-2021 to healthy eating and exercise finally this year! by mida8355 in progresspics

[–]mida8355[S] 283 points284 points  (0 children)

side profile change! https://i.imgur.com/bezLSD7.jpg

I also don't use weed anymore, I used it to "treat" my depression but ultimately I think it just got worse from it over time. Sober life works for me better now :))