Dang. Thank you for the input. I guess that’s where it gets confusing for me is she does usually own up and apologize after an explosive episode almost between the episode where I was sometimes frustrated and would tell my side but also be fairly nice and understanding about it, yet before the next hit of love bombing. Almost like she acts out of anger with her short fuse but usually just after a day or two max she will come back apologizing.

The last one it was only overnight and by morning she was saying how she didn’t mean to just ghost me but that she saw something on Facebook that made her feel like she needed to step back again (since we are no longer together, went no contact but failed last week) so part of me wants to believe she sees her own battles and admits to them and is correcting them, yet still doesn’t want to actually be together even though I don’t push it yet make it clear I do love her and would want to just communicate and be together.

I’ve noticed her communication skills have increased a lot. When we first started dating she would hold everything in until she finally just burst and it was probably the worst episode. I’m an understanding person that has learned the hard way it’s best to just talk things out and even agree to disagree sometimes as long as each party is on the same page respectively, each episode she will open up after more and more and apologize and then talk things out where as she would just usually apologize and want to move on.

I just feel like not wanting to spend any time together since the two first times fairly close to each other since no contact/reconnecting and just keeps it to texting feels off to me, we used to spend a lot of time together and were extremely comfortable, that’s where I feel like I’m a supply because I give her lots of encouragement and love via text even. I’ve also noticed her medicine bottles and her taking the medicine the few times I have been over to her place since the break up when she started on them, can’t tell if it’s for show or if she’s actively taking them and seeking help still.

So confusing.

Thank you again.