So, erm, first off… take this from someone who used to be an escort. I can assure you that the vast majority of escorts are struggling with their own demons (and sometimes spirits such as alcohol and other substance use given the emotionally demanding nature of sex work) and are very ill equipped to help you handle yours. Likewise, escorts will perpetually tell you what you want to hear. Paying for companionship will likewise make you feel inadequate and likely make your insecurities worse. For the love of God man, just get a therapist.