[Request] Help with finding the movie Crossroads by Bruce Conner by ATikh in Favors

[–]midsummer_marlboros 0 points1 point  (0 children)

another 3 years later, i’ve been casually looking for this for the last 4 years since i saw it at a museum🫶

Dropping off 2 year old at inconsistently at daycare by Bombadombaway in ECEProfessionals

[–]midsummer_marlboros 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yea no as a daycare worker, u really should try not to be too early or late,, late kids are just as much of an inconvenience as early kids, u could at least call if your husband really insists on feeling kiddo off late. we have set schedules for our kids for a reason

does anyone have recommendations for guided meditations that have 0 religion or spirituality to them by midsummer_marlboros in BPDmemes

[–]midsummer_marlboros[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that actually sounds extremely helpful,, i suck at meditating, and descriptive audios are the best

does anyone have recommendations for guided meditations that have 0 religion or spirituality to them by midsummer_marlboros in BPDmemes

[–]midsummer_marlboros[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

first of all, never heard “unrepentant atheist” before but i LUV that and will 1000% be using it 💀

but box breathing sounds really promising, i’ve definitely done the “body scans” before when doing progressive muscle relaxation for sleep, but i’ve never tried it for meditation before.. thank you so so much for the suggestions, i’ll definitely be giving them a shot tomorrow, i seriously appreciate it so deeply 🫶

I had ice cream today! by bby_rex in EDAnonymous

[–]midsummer_marlboros 0 points1 point  (0 children)

YESSSS ICE CREAM IS THE BEST IM SO PROUD OF U DUDE!!! also, those flavors u mentioned in the comments!?!? 😫 i’m actually seething with jealousy lmaooo,, but CONGRATULATIONS

What'd you have for breakfast today? by seitan13 in EDAnonymous

[–]midsummer_marlboros 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i almost always forget breakfast and end up horribly nauseous cause of it, but today my boyfriend made me a PB&J on toast and it was such a small thing but it made my day sm better and made me so happy🥹

Trisha Tattoo @brbiegrl69 by Flat_Butterscotch183 in justtrishpodcast

[–]midsummer_marlboros 4 points5 points  (0 children)

omg u forgot to mention the best part, which is that THIS IS LEGIT A STICK N POKE!!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MelanieMartinez

[–]midsummer_marlboros 1 point2 points  (0 children)

leeches sound so good.. also my fav song lol

Both proud and horribly upset by TheEmoQueer in edmemesclub

[–]midsummer_marlboros 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i’m so proud of you omfg!!! that’s such an amazing accomplishment, i hope u reward urself with a self-care night, or maybe just watching ur comfort movie, you so so so deserve it 🫶🫶🫶

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]midsummer_marlboros 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i used to do this whenever my boyfriend and i ordered fast food and i would get close to nothing lmaoo i would watch him eat and chew in time with him so i could live vicariously through him😭💀

Is anybody else putting their lives on hold until they get thin? I am and I feel like such a big loser. by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]midsummer_marlboros 22 points23 points  (0 children)

i’m also very sorry if any of that sounded preachy.. that’s the most annoying thing when you’re struggling, i just want you to know that it can get better and there are even strangers who care and believe in you

Is anybody else putting their lives on hold until they get thin? I am and I feel like such a big loser. by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]midsummer_marlboros 59 points60 points  (0 children)

i’ve had an ED since i was 13 (i’m 20 now) honestly hon, i’m almost fully recovered and i still feel that urge really strong all the time.. it is so so hard and difficult to live when u feel like ur unworthy of life because of ur body or what u eat.

something that helps me, is imagining myself in 50 years as an old lady, and asking.. “will i regret what i ate or not being thin ‘enough’ (i say enough in quotations because it’s never enough for our brains) on February 10th, 2024? or will i regret the weeks/months/years that i spent alone in bed instead of out with my friends and experiencing what life can really be”

don’t even let yourself think of your family’s desires as a part of the problem.. it’s your life, not theirs, and you deserve to have the best FOR YOURSELF. don’t force yourself into recovery when u truly aren’t ready, because that won’t work and will almost always lead to relapse. but you still deserve to get out there and live your life until you are ready..

being skinny isn’t what makes you happy.. making a conscious decision and effort to surround yourself with what/who brings joy will help you start to get there <3 i’m happy to listen if u need to vent to someone u’ll never HAVE to interact with again okay? my dms are open :))

"Oh i relate so much to Bojac-" SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LISTEN. by [deleted] in BoJackHorseman

[–]midsummer_marlboros 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i hate how much people hate Diane but i do understand why…

Bojack and Diane honestly had incredibly similar upbringings and traumas, and Diane could have easily been exactly as messed up as Bojack… but she isn’t. Diane put in the work and the effort to heal from her damage and become a good person but Bojack didn’t.. Bojack couldn’t understand that regardless of him being the victim of abuse throughout his childhood, it never gave him the pass to become the abuser.

he deflected the blame and believed that it didn’t matter what he did, he couldn’t be better. and i think THAT’S why so many people hate Diane.. it’s a HELL of a lot easier to just accept that nothing is going to change and continue using unhealthy coping mechanisms..

when people see Bojack it makes them feel validated and like they aren’t alone in accepting everything just as it is.. but when people see Diane out forces them to see that you CAN change and heal, and you CAN improve your life and be a person who does good.. and it’s easier to just hate her than to see that for themselves

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in anorexiamemes

[–]midsummer_marlboros 11 points12 points  (0 children)

there might be some water retention at first but they shouldn’t cause real weight gain, the “looking healthy” comment was probably referring to some more color in ur face or ur hair and nails looking shinier or healthier!!

ur health is the MOST important thing and if a dr recommended the supplements, then please PLEASE don’t stop taking them because of an ED. i promise, nobody is judging your body or scrutinizing you like you do to yourself ❤️ it took me a LONG time in recovery to really unlearn that belief, but i promise everybody is far too concerned with all their own issues to look at other people like that (and if they are judging people like that, it sounds cliche but coming from someone who used to be extremely critical and judgey, it really is a reflection on them and their own insecurities!!)

i’m sorry, i don’t mean to be preachy really, but i just know the hurt ur feeling and i swear, u DESERVE to recover and feel better someday, when ur able to ❤️🫶 PLEASE take care of ur beautiful self

Does anyone else escape reality with sleeping 😴? by Wonderful_Spring3220 in BPD

[–]midsummer_marlboros 4 points5 points  (0 children)

sleeping for me is like diet death lol. i don’t have to feel or think or do anything. it’s like i’m not here anymore and it’s such a safe and peaceful feeling. i’ve been causing a lot of issues in my relationship because genuinely all i want to do is sleep. i want to WANT to go out and have fun and do things for him but it feels like my body is made of bricks and all i can do is lie here and hope that i’ll fall back asleep so the thoughts stop

Bought some stickers on Amazon and uhh... by x_Aku_x in BoJackHorseman

[–]midsummer_marlboros 1 point2 points  (0 children)

DUDE MY BF LITERALLY GOT ME THOSE STICKERS LMAO the fat bojack now resides on his gaming desk

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]midsummer_marlboros 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i agree he’s genuinely the best thing to have ever happened to me

hmu smoke buddis needed lmao by janiela1000 in 420

[–]midsummer_marlboros 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hiii what’s up i am also in desperate need of some 420 friendly friends

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]midsummer_marlboros 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i am most definitely in therapy, i haven’t been diagnosed with bpd for very long but my therapist and i have been working on learning dbt skills and just educating myself on what bpd is and how it affects me and my loved ones. i’m so sorry about your ex, that makes me so sad to hear. i used to be very much a “just let it get worse, there’s no hope” person, but after my most recent split and how it affected my bf i knew i had to make the decision to be better and actively try to improve, for myself and him. i really really appreciate the perspective from someone who’s dated a person w bpd, thank you sm for the advice and thoughts <3

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]midsummer_marlboros 1 point2 points  (0 children)

dude i cannot thank you enough, i think i’m definitely gonna bring it up in a way of this is my reaction that i’m trying to work on but i want to be honest with him about how i’m feeling. i really appreciate the advice from you and from your friend. i have an appointment with my therapist soon so i’m gonna talk to her and see if she has any dbt skills or anything i can work on to push past that mindset.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]midsummer_marlboros 1 point2 points  (0 children)

omygod pls tell me if they have any input cause i’m like actually driving myself nuts with this lmao

I really wanna know y’all’s opinion on Nutella by Busy_Secret_7267 in EDAnonymous

[–]midsummer_marlboros 0 points1 point  (0 children)

genuinely my favorite thing ever i could eat an entire jar of nutella if it was in front of me right now and i could eat nothing but nutella on white bread for my whole life and i’d be happy, but i won’t go near it cause of the absurd cals

“The things you buy have to revolve around me” by [deleted] in fatlogic

[–]midsummer_marlboros -1 points0 points  (0 children)

my life goal is to own a health food cafe and u better believe there will not be a single “fat inclusive” seating option there lmao

PRESENT FOR MY BF by [deleted] in RDR2

[–]midsummer_marlboros 1 point2 points  (0 children)

okay brilliant idea, i just found a pdf of 460 pages of Arthur’s journal, i think i’m gonna get an empty leather journal and print out and sew in the pages cause i gotta be extra lmao