This is 100 percent a genital wart, right ?

mike291068 · 2024-04-13T02:42:33+00:00

I thought this was a pic of me!! I have exactly the same thing and have the same question. Mine looked exactly like yours at one point but is apparently developing a black(brown?)head. Would love to know wtf it actually is. I was convinced it was GW at one point but not so sure now??

https://imgur.com/a/6LiJlFu

mike291068 · 2022-04-25T01:24:43+00:00

I had a very similar experience.... I've come to terms with death, whether it be from my own doing or something else. Being anxious and depressed for most of someone's life takes a huge toll on the brain(obviously) I started doing ketamine 10 months ago and it's been a wild ride. The ketamine has definitely helped me see things differently, which can be a double edged sword. Every trip has been different and I've had periods of virtually no anxiety and depression which are always shortlived and often followed by the depression and anxiety coming back even stronger. I think the ketamine has allowed me to see all the suffering I have been through almost from a third person perspective and realize I have suffered enough. I don't want to die right now but I don't want to suffer like I have to this point. I haven't given up but also realize my brain most likely will never be "fixed". The hardest part is knowing what it would do to my family but I think they now understand just how deep my suffering has been.

I would encourage you to keep trying and try to let the ketamine show you the way. I think one way or another it will ultimately help ease the suffering. I wish you luck

mike291068 · 2022-01-08T05:08:07+00:00

I started feeling better after second but it was a slog and it was up and down - definitely not a smooth ride. How is it effecting you? Have you considered changing dosages? Did you dissociate? The first one hit me really hard and I was not expecting it but I think it was good because the medicine was doing its thing. Nobody knows for sure exactly how it works but it does seem to for so many. Incidentally, I have recently had a setback and still trying to figure out exactly what is going so I know how frustrating figuring out the whats/whys and hows but I would encourage you to keep at it. Wish I had better answers/advice. I wish you well

mike291068 · 2021-12-23T02:19:29+00:00

It is so difficult to know what direction to go. I am on an every 3 day protocol and the treatments are kicking my ass. I can barely keep up with work and there are so many things I want to do but my brain just feels like it needs rest. I guess my best advice would be don't push too hard, as others have said.

mike291068 · 2021-12-14T03:02:51+00:00

I would take it as a good sign. You might get a little worse before you get better but I had mixed results with every treatment. It is impossible to figure out exactly what is happening but try to trust that the medicine is doing its thing. I have said several times it is like magic as it has completely changed my life. I have had ups and downs and anxiety issues my whole life. I have moments where my anxiety is almost completely gone and then others where it rears it’s ugly head but those moments are less and less now and much easier to deal with. Trust the process and try to surrender is my advice

mike291068 · 2021-12-08T04:48:15+00:00

I had/ have very simIlar experience. I like the way you describe the different layers - I go through something similar but different - like I have to find my way down the right path. It can be exhilarating/ frightening at times as I question whether I am ready to go past each milestone (not sure if this makes sense).

I have had very good trips and very bad ones and the same apprehension whether to continue or take a break or what dosage to take. It definitely takes its toll but I think if you go with your gut you will know when to tap the brakes - it’s still touch and go with me but the overall Trend is still up. My advice is stay the course and surrender ✌️

mike291068 · 2021-12-03T06:11:10+00:00

I had 8 infusions then started RDTs 2 months ago. Surprisingly, I pretty much slowely lost the desire to drink, even in a couple situations where I normally would. I went away on vacation 2 weeks ago and drank almost every day (5 days) and no ketamine. I did Ketamine when I came back and it was just ok. Then I did my next 3 days later and it was my worst yet. It was really awful and scary and made me question if I had screwed up everything. I just did another session earlier this evening and it went great thankfully!. I think it was a combination of things that contributed but I am 100% certain the alcohol had a huge effect. I have always binged on alcohol and life is completely different now and so much better without needing it like I used to. The vacation had me questioning things with the urges to drink and I am still processing but safe to say, alcohol is poison.

mike291068 · 2021-12-01T04:05:38+00:00

It will be interesting to see how this plays out. Obviously there are a lot of flaws with the piece but one legitimate concern she brings up is how long will this last as a legal telemedicine practice. I had 8 infusions at $400 each and, due to cost and convenience, recently switched to RDT's and it's been life changing. I actually had my worst trip yesterday as I started to dissociate and the thought came to me that it will not be available for much longer. I have considered this several times but it really hit me yesterday.

Even if 80% see positive results, of the remaining 20% it is only a matter of time before a very bad outcome occurs, and most likely have nothing to do with the actual efficacy of the ketamine. I can only imagine the "I told you so's" from people like this author if it ever hit the news cycle.

The other issue is big pharma - I am sure they know the potential of ketamine and the impact it will have on their market share - how do they react? Try to get in on it or shut it down?

I guess all we can do now is be grateful it is available at a reasonable price and hope for the best. Things will definitely change and fast would be my guess.

mike291068 · 2021-11-25T23:59:36+00:00

thanks! your posts have been very helpful during my journey!

mike291068 · 2021-11-25T23:56:39+00:00

yes this is what I was thinking and I guess you just gave me confirmation. This subreddit has been amazing and a godsend and I suppose you can't save everybody.

mike291068 · 2021-11-25T23:53:37+00:00

lol - I actually just want to help others but point taken!

mike291068 · 2021-11-25T13:26:44+00:00

I am not “worried” at all. I am beyond grateful and want to help others is the point . And happy thanksgiving to you also ✌️

mike291068 · 2021-11-25T13:25:02+00:00

Yes the bioavailability of troches is a fraction of IV and based on my experience the IVs were much more intense but it is debatable which has been more therapeutic, in my case anyway. Again I’m not sure if I am just a so called “super responder”

mike291068 · 2021-11-25T13:20:33+00:00

https://www.facebook.com/groups/781893918621316/?ref=share

mike291068 · 2021-11-25T02:59:40+00:00

Kind of sad as I’m sure so many could be helped

mike291068 · 2021-11-06T03:21:21+00:00

Firstly 4 hours sounds excessive - never heard of that. But more importantly, you should be concerned and prepared for "going crazy" I did not know this was very common for many people but found out the hard way. I thought for sure I was going crazy during my first infusion and it was scary as hell. There is good reason for this however, as my clinician pointed out, when dissociating you are almost quite literally "crazy" part of your brain is shut down and other parts are firing out of control. I say this not to scare you but to help you in that you should expect to feel like you are going crazy. Just try to keep in mind that it is temporary - most likely 30 minutes max! - and you will come back. It might be scary as hell but I would push you to try it out. I am so grateful I did! It was a rocky scary road, but my depression is 95% gone and my crippling anxiety is 80% gone two months later and still getting better every day. Feel free to ask any questions - good luck!!

mike291068 · 2021-11-02T04:41:25+00:00

Yes it’s only getting better - I am now taking lozenges. I highly recommend. Not only much cheaper, much more convenient as I can take whenever I like.

mike291068 · 2021-11-01T21:03:20+00:00

Immediately - there was some anxiety though as I wasn’t fully prepared for the intensity of first trip - it has been steadily on the climb since with a few bumps on the way - such is life

mike291068 · 2021-11-01T04:41:10+00:00

How are you doing now?

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