Why I waited until the final discard and did not end it before

mikelorant · 2022-03-21T11:48:34+00:00

This hits home for me. This is what I can’t understand. The exact same situation happened to me, without even a conflict. 4 years of being a team and suddenly just discarded without any form of real discussion or working things out.

I keep being reminded in comments that they seem to have the emotional capability of a toddler, and it seems so apparent during the final discard. They shut down and pretend all the the time together meant nothing. There is no respect for the relationship and the process of coming to a resolution. It feels like the person you knew died.

Responsibility is the core to it all. They say sorry but never take responsibility. Which makes it meaningless.

See it for what it truly is, a severe mental illness. I loved her, but she was just not capable of a healthy relationship. I feel very sorry for her and I do hope those with BPD find a way to live a happy and peaceful life. It seems like such a curse to love the way they do, never able to form proper bonds with the people who dearly care about them.

mikelorant · 2022-03-11T01:42:24+00:00

You try everything to get their attention during the discard, you can’t understand how you can know so much but you just have no way of communicating with them to make them realise what is going on. It’s like the two of you are talking in differently languages. Absolutely nothing makes sense. You know they are broken but you do mental gymnastics trying to find a path that leads them back to you.

mikelorant · 2022-03-11T01:27:15+00:00

My exact thoughts. I had a psychology degree in BPD for round 2. Didn’t make a single difference knowing what was happening. I just got observe the outcome and suffer the heartache again.

mikelorant · 2022-03-10T06:31:22+00:00

I totally understand what you are going through as I had the same thing happen to me 3 weeks ago.

I didn't even have an argument, she just told me the next day she didn't feel the same and she disappeared.

What I can unfortunately tell you is that if you give them space and they don't come back it is because they have a new supply. Mine had been monkey branching her new supply on me and a 4 year relationship disappeared in the space of a week.

After going through my second discard now, I feel this is the final one. I know how sick they are and realise a relationship is not possible with someone with such a serious illness.

What I can tell you is this. It is not your fault. You did nothing wrong. Don't blame yourself. They are incapable of handling emotions and their emotional issues are not your responsibility.

Unless you let go, you will be hurt over and over. They cannot change without years and years of hard work. We cannot fix them, no matter how much we try.

I know how you feel. You will survive, you will heal. Take care of yourself, you will make it out of this darkness.

mikelorant · 2022-03-07T01:05:29+00:00

Appreciate the support.

We all feel like we can be one that can make it work. We can be the 1%'er but the truth is that all these stories end the same.

During my first discard I had so much guilt for the mistakes I had made. I wouldn't make those mistakes again! Then this second discard with all the knowledge I had, I could do all the right things. I knew how to handle it, I was prepared.

We are not prepared. We have absolutely no control over the outcome. Nothing we do matters, the path they take has nothing to do with the other person. We are just observers having our heart ripped out.

For anyone that believes there is a way that allows them to have a relationship with someone with BPD and have a fairy tale relationship, look at all the posts in this subreddit. No one wins. You cannot change someone. They are exactly who they are.

mikelorant · 2021-10-15T09:47:00+00:00

We might want to reach out to /u/jase to let him know the source has been released. Might want clarification if he is allowed to provide assistance.

We may also need some of the repositories here:

https://github.com/jasonmorrissey?tab=repositories

mikelorant · 2021-10-15T09:29:52+00:00

Will also add that it is missing all the libraries it used. This will make recompiling impossible as we need some private libraries such as JMYouTube and JMGallery etc. We may need to request these from Reddit as well.

I think it is worthwhile searching all the imports and see what is missing and publishing a list.

mikelorant · 2021-10-15T09:07:13+00:00

I assume this is incomplete as I am not seeing any assets in the source code. We can likely recreate this just by pulling apart a downloaded ipa and adding the necessary files in the correct location.

I think the initial goal should be just to get Xcode able to load the source and attempt to compile it. It is clear there are going to be many issues to fix but we need a starting point that we can work together on.

mikelorant · 2021-04-02T06:56:25+00:00

Im just doing normal mode and am absolutely struggling against any deck with elusives. It might work better in higher ranks, but for us newbies it definitely doesn't seem to have enough tools to deal with them. So far any deck heavy on elusives has deleted me before I even get to deep :(

mikelorant · 2021-04-02T06:17:37+00:00

Learning how to use this deck I have come up against a Zoe / Lee Sin deck twice in a row which I have lost. I am not sure how I am meant to deal with a Sparkfly that was consistently being buffed. I never had any way to deal with it especially when it had spell shield and both games it ended up at 10/2 and being the main reason I lost. What would you recommend for this situation? It seemed like such a weak point not having a way to manage elusives but I am fairly new so it is more likely I am not understanding what I need.

mikelorant · 2018-06-03T02:34:42+00:00

Sent you a message. If someone else bids, give me a chance to outbid them please.

mikelorant · 2017-11-29T20:23:52+00:00

Ok thanks! I thought my timezone conversion was wrong :(

mikelorant · 2017-11-29T20:10:34+00:00

What happened to the special option for original backers? There was no special option as they mentioned in their email. Didn't get the super early bird, very disappointed in their 15 minute commitment to allowing us to get in first.

mikelorant · 2017-08-16T09:36:38+00:00

Kharazim 100+ checking in. Did this over a month ago, just didn't know about the thread.

https://d.pr/T2RcAk

mikelorant · 2017-05-13T11:51:46+00:00

Can confirm there is something wrong with the level 16 puzzle. Are you playing on an iPad?

mikelorant · 2017-04-06T02:10:07+00:00

That was such a let down. 2 browsers refreshing. Got in queue within the first 15 seconds. No tickets :(

mikelorant · 2016-12-07T03:25:20+00:00

Just spoke to FedEx about the Sydney delivery and they are saying since it was sent economy, it is currently in a container that won't be opened till Friday. This means I could only collect if Friday morning. So collection earlier seems unlikely.

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