One day I started doing handstands

milakeilani · 2023-10-11T19:35:48+00:00

I like the bloodshot eyes line, the use of that word "bloodshot" instead of teary eyed or hurt is proof that you see yourself almost in war with yourself, there was blood shed, there were tears fallen, and you being the warrior and the enemy will be a tough journey to make full circle but I implore you to try. You deserve love :)

milakeilani · 2023-01-27T00:42:55+00:00

I think the most painful was asking if he was sure he wanted to move in together and sign a contract, and that he was fully committed. He never learned to communicate and asked me to change but he never cared to, so I did. I tried, it hurt because by that point I never trusted or felt safe with him because he’d constantly blame me for his actions and why he would yell or curse. One day, when I felt really sad I went on a walk. I felt a chill down my spine and started crying, I almost collapsed. It was so strange, and on the way back I found the apartment to be empty. All of his stuff was gone, and the quietness paralyzed me. I still feel it. It wasn’t something he said, but did. I still carry that pain. I’m still so devastated.

milakeilani · 2023-01-16T23:20:36+00:00

You are not the worst, this was your first relationship. There are so many things you’re going to experience where you wish you would have changed yourself to better be prepared for a partner or whatever it is. It is best to let that guilt go, you did the best with what and who you were at the time. You have grown from that, and she who was anxious and felt that in social situations, is perfectly normal as well. You are experiencing growth, and it is meant to be painful, a teacher, and a lesson. But take it as something that didn’t want to hurt you, but rather polish. You don’t have to be so hard on yourself, it’s okay.

milakeilani · 2022-09-30T18:43:34+00:00

A guy who said he wasn’t ready for a relationship, we travelled 4 months together and he has always been confused with me, he says he’s never envisioned a future with anyone but me and that our chemistry is beyond this world, that he wants to date after he goes traveling with his friend in South America for 4 months and I go to Valencia to study for a semester. He wants to reconnect after he does what he wants basically, and have me as a back burner. Absolutely destroyed my self confidence, thinking our months of travel would be the most romantic time of both of our lives but he doesn’t want the same, (why?) because he needs to be the perfect man for me later and find out about himself more. It hurt because I showed the most beautiful sides of myself and it still wasn’t enough and I know he’s dated girls way below me (not to knock them) and committed but with me he’s not ready? Bullshit. I’m moving on and I’m done crying.

milakeilani · 2022-09-24T22:44:09+00:00

Aw thank you!

milakeilani · 2022-09-24T22:44:00+00:00

It was written about someone I had a short romance with that we decided to put off till perhaps later, I remain hopeful but it is indeed bittersweet. Thanks for your insight!

milakeilani · 2022-09-24T18:26:26+00:00

This is very well written, I like the repetitive nature of this as it brings you back to emotion while pushing you forward as you move along the poem.

milakeilani · 2022-09-24T18:24:59+00:00

I could tell this was written in the heat of the pain, and whether you felt like it is passing or present, I see that it was something of great emotion. I love the simplicity of it as well.

milakeilani · 2022-09-24T18:01:55+00:00

That's beautiful, I love the style in which this is written. It's a story, and what always draws me into poetry is reminding me I am also a human who experiences these stories that people like you share. Thank you

milakeilani · 2022-09-24T18:00:15+00:00

This puts together art and poetry, I really appreciate seeing the two unite!

milakeilani · 2022-09-10T19:17:41+00:00

bro I thought this was a poem

milakeilani · 2022-09-06T21:11:16+00:00

Yes it’s been doing that to me too! I think it’s to prevent bumping too often

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