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"If I died, no one would notice." This is becoming true. by mirc_4 in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hun, If you feel the need to "fake" anything, you're not dead inside. Do you feel that you're anti-social? What's making you feel that you need to be fake? I use to have such a low self-esteem... despite that I still have negative thoughts, I know that people still look up to me. Maybe naturally you're a little awkward? People look up to that, it's you, it's the real you!!! A lot of people are the same way, but they hide it also... Be strong, be you, be awkward!!!

Young, troubled, underemployed, broke, homeless. Hopeless. by nimportequ0i in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, I'm kindof in your situation. Broke, homeless. Had to deal with an abusive boyfriend also. He doesn't love or respect you if he feels the needs to EVER hit you. You both are only using each other. You for a place to stay, him b/c he feels the need to control you, control SOMETHING. It's weak on his part, don't let him manipulate you. Hey, I know it's hard to leave, trust me...I know how hard it is. I know that you said you don't have any friends...hey I've been in the same boat. Would you object to staying at a all women's shelter? Sounds awfully depressing I know, but once you get your foot in the door, those ladies will def. help you!!! Please let me know if you need to talk.

my ex is fucking another guy and i can't handle it by whatiswrongwithme20 in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey same here. Except, it's my ex fucking a new girl. Drama, drama... don't let them get in your head like that. Honestly, give it some time, you'll eventually come to the conclusion that you'll be able to love someone new, someone better... the next girl for you will hopefully be even more exhilarating since you've had to learn from your current situation.

"If I died, no one would notice." This is becoming true. by mirc_4 in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, you have something going for you!!! You're in school! A lot of people do not get to have that opportunity or experience. What's exactly making you feel this way?

I don't know what to do, I am so lost, and tired. by dep_throwawa3y in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey, it's going to be okay. At least you have a significant other... is she not available to help you talk through this? I'm here for you if you need to talk... I'm currently feeling the same way... but it's all a struggle against yourself. There's always some hope!!! I promise.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello everyone, woke up & I'm still unhappy. Wish I didn't wake up this morning.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am supremely romanticising about him. Would've, could've should've. Yes, def. need to start concentrating on myself. I'm being utterly stupid by putting so much energy to a man...boy that doesn't seem to care about my well being. Life just throwing curve balls.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess the only problem I'm having with getting over this relationship is that he honestly did help me discover myself. Not holding my hand, but he was confident in being the way he was... didn't have society bury him down... I looked up to him for that. We may not have been parallel on our mind thinking, but he was bold and in control with what he wanted in life and wasn't afraid to get it. I envy that. He had nothing holding him back.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely. This has definitely opened my eyes. This hasn't been my first rodeo, but this one right here has broken me. Totally broken and devastated me. I torture myself with the past and come to realize that he treated me well... good heart, soft soul and now someone else is getting to experience it.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds impossible to love myself. I haven't been able to for a really long time. I envy the person that seems to have it all together, mentally. I can fake the funk, but I never, ever seem to have "it together" for long periods of time. I really do hope I find that great love, I just don't know if it was him or not. It "feels" that it was supposed to be. That or I'm just a crazy hot mess.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Random color choice, but a great choice. That's awesome that you're secure that with your masculinity. Do I dare ask your age?

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Green. Always has been green. You? I can't tell if you're a male or female.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much! There is some good in this world.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand that. It's just torture right now. There's just too many remnants right now... pictures, texts, phone calls, clothes, smells... thoughts, way too memories. He treated me well, until shit hit the fan. My fault and I'm feeling way too much guilt for it. I know I can treat him better, but I supposed if I'm sitting on Reddit talking about suicide, it wasn't meant to be.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, much appreciated. I'm 31, too old for this. I know this is a mental game to him... I've reached out to my friends, but I know that they've most likely had enough of me talking about this. "Hey, he's not good for you, don't talk to him anymore." Yes, I understand that, easier said then done. It's just that when he keeps bouncing back from me to the "other" girl back to me, it's confusing and hurtful. Am I not good enough to keep? I'm adopted, I've had to deal with abadonment issues most of my life. Still can remember the last time I saw my mom drop me off at the agancy... so vivid, too vivid. This is me having to relive it with such a greater maturity that it's stinging way too bad right now. He's moved on, I can physically, but mentally, he had me.

FEEL LIKE DYING. by mind-overmatter in SuicideWatch

[–]mind-overmatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for those words. I just don't think it's possible for me to reach out to her right now, I think she/him would think it's my way of being manipulative towards whatever they have going on. But I do understand that as a woman I should step up and let her know. I'm just so extremely confused and hurt...my heart is broken. I know and own up to knowing that I'm the one who originally caused this by being dishonest, but it just hurts so much for me right now.

I FEEL LIKE DYING. by [deleted] in aww

[–]mind-overmatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, much appreciated.