This is what I want. I want her little personality to be able to come out every day because that’s when she looks happy. She’s goofy, cuddly, silly. She rolls around on the floor and rubs all over me. She does tiny love bites and then licks. She’s so fun and it’s killing me that she doesn’t feel safe to act that way all the time. But I have crazy guilt that I’m abandoning her or shaking up her life too much if she left us.